well, that wasn't too bad...
the bogger outage, that is... but only because I had too little time to be babbling much anyway the past couple of days...
and while I did go wander around myspace (where I found a rather judgmental kid insisting that I be insulted because she called me a freak... she don't know me vewwy well, do she?) and other comments and messages I finally got to respond to, but I found myself babbling in the long lost this candor could be yours, which is the current name of the old live journal that was the first step outside of my own website into a public site for journaling online... people I knew there long since left me for dead as I seldom write there anymore, but there are a few really fantastic people I still hear from when they notice I've showed my face...
it's a lot like life, this blogging universe... people seem to find a comfort zone, a home town, so to speak, and make themselves comfortable and stay there... I've never had a home town, per say, since NYC is a bit huge to give that home town feeling... even schools there don't have the same proms and activities that the rest of the country takes for granted... and I've always been comfortable drifting in and out of groups of people and from place to place from the time I was very young...
cuz I realize that the one I want to be with (besides me) is not where I am, so I wander off to share something somewhere else in case the one I want to be with is over there, wherever there might be at any given moment... she's wandering around looking for me... I don't want to ponder to probabilities of the timing of our actually bumping into each other just now cuz mathematics is a killer for hope and illusions (sneaking out of statistics class again, am I?)...
I went shopping before work today and sent $200 on holiday gifts and candy for the people at work... that's almost as much as I spent on Halloween, I think... insanely me, that is... there is no wonder why I don't have the expensive toys I used to have, I enjoy giving stuff away too much... the state database is still as wonky as ever and the government man (it's a three parter) still hasn't gotten back to me even though he said Tuesday the latest... I didn't expect him to change his habits now... my guess is that he can't get the process he needs to teach me right himself, so he's avoiding trying to teach me what he doesn't know...
so I spent the morning shopping and then putting together gift bags as my office turned into a mini-Santa's workshop... I stayed until 7pm to knock out what I could for the state database and what is left is what the govt man must show me because I am not going to figure it out for myself because I have piles of other work falling behind and it's his job to show me how to use the messed up state database... the bottom line is I did manage to get a few thousand records uploaded, but I'm leaving a few hundred for him simply to prove the point that he's not been doing his job since day one (if he didn't CC an email in while he insinuated that I've been dragging my feet to five different high mucky-mucks, I'd be kinder to his incompetent butt, but he insisted on pretending he was helping so I am waiting for him to do what he said he'd do)...
much chocolate at work... and then home to canned dinner and cheese filled breadsticks and I think I'll start eating healthy again next year... hopefully my doctor will not read me a riot act as my semi-annual check up is the 29th... I feel good, just not as great as I usually feel cuz of the slowness of the blubber... sadly, I am still moving faster than most people around me and have no motivation to kick my own butt into gear...
oh, but I did put yet another personal add online... I'll put the copy into a btc entry any day now... another message in a bottle into a tiny pond hoping that's the place the one I want to be with might turn up... it's so much fun, I can hardly stand it (shhh, pretend you don't hear the giggles)... I also signed up at some writer's board that has less than a dozen members... all thanks to my myspace wandering...
I've rambled on again... dangit, one of these days I'll remember to be brief here...
hope your day and night are fun J
and while I did go wander around myspace (where I found a rather judgmental kid insisting that I be insulted because she called me a freak... she don't know me vewwy well, do she?) and other comments and messages I finally got to respond to, but I found myself babbling in the long lost this candor could be yours, which is the current name of the old live journal that was the first step outside of my own website into a public site for journaling online... people I knew there long since left me for dead as I seldom write there anymore, but there are a few really fantastic people I still hear from when they notice I've showed my face...
it's a lot like life, this blogging universe... people seem to find a comfort zone, a home town, so to speak, and make themselves comfortable and stay there... I've never had a home town, per say, since NYC is a bit huge to give that home town feeling... even schools there don't have the same proms and activities that the rest of the country takes for granted... and I've always been comfortable drifting in and out of groups of people and from place to place from the time I was very young...
cuz I realize that the one I want to be with (besides me) is not where I am, so I wander off to share something somewhere else in case the one I want to be with is over there, wherever there might be at any given moment... she's wandering around looking for me... I don't want to ponder to probabilities of the timing of our actually bumping into each other just now cuz mathematics is a killer for hope and illusions (sneaking out of statistics class again, am I?)...
I went shopping before work today and sent $200 on holiday gifts and candy for the people at work... that's almost as much as I spent on Halloween, I think... insanely me, that is... there is no wonder why I don't have the expensive toys I used to have, I enjoy giving stuff away too much... the state database is still as wonky as ever and the government man (it's a three parter) still hasn't gotten back to me even though he said Tuesday the latest... I didn't expect him to change his habits now... my guess is that he can't get the process he needs to teach me right himself, so he's avoiding trying to teach me what he doesn't know...
so I spent the morning shopping and then putting together gift bags as my office turned into a mini-Santa's workshop... I stayed until 7pm to knock out what I could for the state database and what is left is what the govt man must show me because I am not going to figure it out for myself because I have piles of other work falling behind and it's his job to show me how to use the messed up state database... the bottom line is I did manage to get a few thousand records uploaded, but I'm leaving a few hundred for him simply to prove the point that he's not been doing his job since day one (if he didn't CC an email in while he insinuated that I've been dragging my feet to five different high mucky-mucks, I'd be kinder to his incompetent butt, but he insisted on pretending he was helping so I am waiting for him to do what he said he'd do)...
much chocolate at work... and then home to canned dinner and cheese filled breadsticks and I think I'll start eating healthy again next year... hopefully my doctor will not read me a riot act as my semi-annual check up is the 29th... I feel good, just not as great as I usually feel cuz of the slowness of the blubber... sadly, I am still moving faster than most people around me and have no motivation to kick my own butt into gear...
oh, but I did put yet another personal add online... I'll put the copy into a btc entry any day now... another message in a bottle into a tiny pond hoping that's the place the one I want to be with might turn up... it's so much fun, I can hardly stand it (shhh, pretend you don't hear the giggles)... I also signed up at some writer's board that has less than a dozen members... all thanks to my myspace wandering...
I've rambled on again... dangit, one of these days I'll remember to be brief here...
hope your day and night are fun J
Labels: babble, Blogger, blogs, btc, chocolate, energy, food, giggle, health, livejournal, myspace, work, writing
posted by candoor at 8:25 PM
3 Comments:
I love coming here and relaxing into chocolate and babbling and yays and poetry and dietary indulgences and work rants and heroism and music and all that is comfortable and fun and wistful and longing and sharing and caring and everything else that you are.
Love, hugs, smiles and yays! :)
(and I will call..my minutes renew this weekend)
Dia, Love, too expensive to fly at this time, but ultimately i just wanted to make sure you are always ready to share the couch and perhaps share the Green Chair. i trust your cooking is adequate?
and I love you coming here with your love and lovely self :)
you too Z...
cooking?... in this place?... I tired of having to clean before I cook, so I stopped cooking here... I heat stuff up...
but even with Rasputin's odd hours and habit of sleeping on the couch with the TV on, you are very welcome :)
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