bloated boredom
it is rare that I feel bored... there's usually so much goinmg on in my head that no matter how little I do even over days or weeks and no matter how lonely I get in alone time, bored doesn't usually manifest itself... it's an odd feeling...
even the food is boring... maybe I am finally getting tired of the bloat... or maybe it's the reduction of chocolate in my diet of late... or just too much laziness and toom much watching and too little doing... I don't doo much lately...
Precious turned up the TV and so American Idol and House sort of entered my brain, but mostly I'm just bored... I am pretty sure much of this doing nothing is directly related to my not wanting to continue spending money as I've been spending it... poverty can be quite boring...
it feels good to check in on myspace and find lots more people knowing on my door and a few letting me know they are feeling the words... I think I am crashing though... I didn't have sugar today after five straight days of lots of sugar... and no caffeine... dang drug addict...
I wanna new drug...
maybe I'll do something tomorrow... hope you had fun today :)
even the food is boring... maybe I am finally getting tired of the bloat... or maybe it's the reduction of chocolate in my diet of late... or just too much laziness and toom much watching and too little doing... I don't doo much lately...
Precious turned up the TV and so American Idol and House sort of entered my brain, but mostly I'm just bored... I am pretty sure much of this doing nothing is directly related to my not wanting to continue spending money as I've been spending it... poverty can be quite boring...
it feels good to check in on myspace and find lots more people knowing on my door and a few letting me know they are feeling the words... I think I am crashing though... I didn't have sugar today after five straight days of lots of sugar... and no caffeine... dang drug addict...
I wanna new drug...
maybe I'll do something tomorrow... hope you had fun today :)
posted by candoor at 10:20 PM
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here's a pseudo-sincere snappy-1-liner!
hey, i'm movin on march 31st [if i survive that long] into a bitchin new house w/ 3 girl roomies. i'm getting the big master bedroom w/ large private bathroom & 2 walk-in closets [big enough to store you if you wanna visit] and my rent is $760 [down from $1400 for my lonely 1 bedroom one bath current dealio]. they pay $380 coz they're poor and have to share their bathroom. what i'm saying is, get serious about moving & i'll kick one of them out.
YOU ARE BORED OF ORLANDO, THAT'S A FACT AND I NEED YOUR PXYKO EXPERTISE TO KEEP ME IN CHECK WHEN I GO BATSHIT FLYING OFF THE WALL:Z!
$380 man! you can't beat that with a shitstick + you never need air conditioning in sandy eggo, it's always 80 here year'round. [wireless and speedy puter is included as well]. america's finest city await:z!
ok, taking the idea as seriously as I can at the moment and thinking through this possibility, my first thought (and it could be my mood at the moment - or perhaps the past decade of not living in space outside of my body that I really consider my home) but I don't know if I'll ever willingly roommate with strangers again...
my first thought is I do not want to put myself in another depend-on-roommates to survive situation if I can help it... especially not in close proximity with people I don't know...
you make it sound appealing financially (though if I look at it strickly financially, I can find a room and a shared bath for less than half that in other places) I and knowing I have a place to stay while I explore whether I want to live somewhere definitely makes the idea more concrete, but except for when I am in an intimate relationship, I do not enjoy sharing a bathroom, especially not with a stranger, no less strangers... it's the lack of privacy and it's the forced intimacy... choosing to sleep with and share body fluids with someone is one thing (a beautiful misty-eyed, sigh, alas, wistful memory thing at that :) ... but with strangers it's like living in a dorm with a public bathroom...
that is my last choice of living situation... and definitely not condusive living conditions to opening the door to entertaining a new intimate relationship (I'm in the situation now and do not want to change to the same or similar thing)...
it's a long way to next February and I may have a more adventurous mindset then (or tomorrow, for that matter)... and I definitely want more $ in the bank than I have now before I make a big move (which will require a major change in lifestyle and separating from Raspy's habits just to get started)...
and I'd have to psych myself up to play the job search and the whole groom and sell myself game again (my first reaction to that is: yuk)...
and then there's the stuff in storage I do not want to abandon to be factored in... so much pondering must be done...
sheesh, I sound old and crochety... can I have a do-over? (at this game of life)... at least I am considering the idea of relocating again (and laughing at myself even as I do ponder the possibility and the changes seriously), that's a good thing :)
SD, CA, huh?...
???? u callin ME a stranger ????
aaahaha, i KID, anyhoo yeh, i've never lived with roomies before ever and so this will be a trip for me. might not last for long, who can tell?
one of them is my cousin tho, so not really a stranger per se.
Happy Valentine's Day :)
Chocolate and hearts and smiles and hugs and lotsa yay!
you're not the stranger ya know... it's sharing a bathroom and bedroom wall with people I don't know... three in a bathroom plus visitors could mean six at a given time, way too many for a bathroom for my comfort... I've lived long enough not moving into a space fully, I have my own bathroom and will keep it that way wherever I move unless I sleep with someone I live with...
also, I am a night person, often awake late, I don't want to have to tip toe or wear headphones all the time...
roommies can be much fun if the chemistry is right... but there are many potential conflicts in living behavior... I used to know where a questionairre was online that identified many... like kitchen habits, fridge habits, health habits, bathroom habits, living area habits, sleeping habits, relationship habits, philosophies, beliefs, interests, intolerances, and more... maybe I'll look for it again (or write one of my own :)
it's still a crap shoot and tonight I'm smiling a lot more about it than I was last night... you've got me taking moving more seriously though, thanks for that :)
Happy V-Day to you too... no chocolates (and I'm feeling it), but way too much pastas, cheeses, and fats and absolutely no movement and I am really getting tired of being in this body, so... we'll see :)
need to bounce more :)
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