rambling on in my mind

and some of it is finding it's way into the Word file that is destined to be dozens of BTC entries (it's about 40 pages at the moment... just need time to look it over, edit or add and maybe spellcheck and then upload... not tonight though, not enough time... tomorrow night I believe we're going to A Chorus Line at a local college... Friday night is a concert at the House of Blues... Saturday is the Deland Music Festival with a run over to the Hard Rock for 30 Seconds to Mars... Sunday, if I am still alive, is rest)...

so maybe next week?...

obviously my rambling time is all in my mind these days and that's creating all sorts of fun instabilities and flashbacks and thought bubbles floating around in my head just itching to pop out... that will probably make for some odder than usual comments and entries here and there...

and then there's this thought about getting a new computer that's been dancing around in my head more and more lately (and frankly, it's getting a bit distracting)... ah, the method to my madness even works on me... and the TV threw this next bit of information at me... if you've got money, it might be consumer heaven... if you're poor, it may be consumer hell... it's Black Friday and I'm gonna keep checking it out to see if I can find a good deal on something I actually want (and make sure it's something worth buying for me... for instance, the Walmart laptop sale may look great, but without a PCI slot, it's very limited and not for me)...

next thing I I heard on TV was about let's meet out and sure enough, I signed up... they are not listing Orlando as a city so I left it as NYC... we'll see the typical ageism and elitism dominates there as it does on most meeting sites and in the general culture...

work was an average day, everybody dealing with a bit of sugar hangover and the usual politics still floating around outside our little office area... I am amused because the evening supervisor continues to face the obstacles of one particular person (who just happens to be the hub of information between admissions and the rest of the hospital) resistant to change... gradually I am finding ways to work around the guy and make him meaningless in my chain of communication, though it means other administrators have to pick up the slack (and eventually, I hope, will grow tired of providing information to me that should rightly come from the guy resistant to change and then step in and manage the organization instead of letting it bog down whenever anyone decides the way to refuse to cooperate with others)...

at home, the usual... no gym, impatient eating, busy for others, lonely for intimacy, tired, and recording all the lack of excitement right here for you and me and posterity... I suppose I should be getting messages from posterity now... thanks for the Meg and Dia videos... feel free to fall in love with me on your next visit...

by the way, the eventually to be uploaded BTC entries will contain some pieces of entries from here and myspace and elswehere and also communication between various peoples, including Meg and Dia and my commenters at various writing spaces and other lovers and other strangers... could be exciting if you can get past the ego tripping (or find it amusing as I do)...

and life continues to be more fun than anything else... even if brain clog is happening more and more often what with the lack of daily babbling... hopefully you finding ways to balance everything and are enjoying life too... here imn realtime, it is time to drift off to la la land as I let my fingers tap a few hundred more words in the btc file...

nite nite J