too much energy for sleep
I can get a third row center (three seats in from the center isle) ticket to Sweet Charity for a Friday night in March if I wanted to spend $100 and go by myself... it's not the going by myself that stopped me from buying the ticket... I'm pondering and if the ticket is still available next time I think about it, maybe...
I miss Broadway...
almost as much as I miss being in love (I mean actualizing it in the physical world with another person... I know I fall in love on the internet and in my fantasies all the time... I seem to have this slight recollection that it's not quite the same though...
I should be asleep, of course, but I got to browsing...
and I got to loving the feelings and fantasies and falls again... a few myspace clicks and I found myself downloading some mp3 files and I decided to search the web for an ancient mp3 player that would work on this ancient computer and after a while, I found one... it's playing right now... super yay...
Rasputin wants to borrow my phone again for a call to the Ukraine right about my wake up time (my phone is my alarm clock)... why the idea of Precious leaving her phone home one day (when technically it's not allowed at school anyway) is just one of those mysteries of my dear roommie... next time we eat out, I'll remind him that he owes me dinner since I pay for all the phones and utilities...
hopefully he will remember to wake me on time...
the nice lady from the phone company called at work today and deducted all the overcharges from the bill... so the cell phone bills come to $111 this month... the house phone bills average about $100 a month cuz the DSL is on that one... electric will probably be under $200 since it's winter here... cable is cheap, $20 a month... so I am probably getting away under $500 this month... of course the storage place is a few months behind again and I'll send them $1000 to cover past months and jump a few months ahead... that might cover it until April... the car is paid off, so no more payments, yay... insurance is due this month, I think that's come down under $500 (for six months)... so all in all I will bite a little further into my dwindling savings again in Febuary even if I don't eat or buy gas or do anything... yeah, right, $100 for Sweet Charity... good rethinking, ric...
as long as expenses are larger than income, there's no way I can justify splurging on anything... even the air conditioner for the car may wait another month... probably have to replace the whole thing for $1500 or some ridiculous amount because I let it go dormant for months... waaawaaawaaa, ya know...
I am way overtired, but still somehow wired... my sniffles are fading, the usual course for the building of immunity against the cold/flu bugs each season... music helps and I can play mp3 files in the bbackground while I sit here now... oh, yay, more yay!...
sure, I'm poor and sometimes lonely and many aspects of life are missing from my ideal experience, but I am still rhyming and loving the feeling of expressing myself, even if I stash the rhymes away and nobody notices (I mean, really, who has time to follow me around everywhere I go?... we're not in high school anymore, right?... oh hush, I don't feel like growing up anymore, so there)...
I ate light again today, but still feel bloated... it'll probably take a few months of eating very light to lose this bloated feeling and for a year or more I've not maintained the light for more than a couple of weeks at most... every weekend the pizza is delivered or we go out to dinner somewhere and I forget (conveniently)...
no exercise, that's what is missing... so many missing pieces... la la la ment... the music stopped... I've got to find more mp3 files... ok, I did... I have a bunch in a folder and they play now... I'd love to share the playlist, but I don't have a program that will copy the playlist to a text file (next search, perhaps)... anyway,
work was good, life is good, I'm gonna lay down and get a few hours sleep now... it's actually 3:30am... shhh... I think I've caught up on most of today... thanks for being out there...
I miss Broadway...
almost as much as I miss being in love (I mean actualizing it in the physical world with another person... I know I fall in love on the internet and in my fantasies all the time... I seem to have this slight recollection that it's not quite the same though...
I should be asleep, of course, but I got to browsing...
and I got to loving the feelings and fantasies and falls again... a few myspace clicks and I found myself downloading some mp3 files and I decided to search the web for an ancient mp3 player that would work on this ancient computer and after a while, I found one... it's playing right now... super yay...
Rasputin wants to borrow my phone again for a call to the Ukraine right about my wake up time (my phone is my alarm clock)... why the idea of Precious leaving her phone home one day (when technically it's not allowed at school anyway) is just one of those mysteries of my dear roommie... next time we eat out, I'll remind him that he owes me dinner since I pay for all the phones and utilities...
hopefully he will remember to wake me on time...
the nice lady from the phone company called at work today and deducted all the overcharges from the bill... so the cell phone bills come to $111 this month... the house phone bills average about $100 a month cuz the DSL is on that one... electric will probably be under $200 since it's winter here... cable is cheap, $20 a month... so I am probably getting away under $500 this month... of course the storage place is a few months behind again and I'll send them $1000 to cover past months and jump a few months ahead... that might cover it until April... the car is paid off, so no more payments, yay... insurance is due this month, I think that's come down under $500 (for six months)... so all in all I will bite a little further into my dwindling savings again in Febuary even if I don't eat or buy gas or do anything... yeah, right, $100 for Sweet Charity... good rethinking, ric...
as long as expenses are larger than income, there's no way I can justify splurging on anything... even the air conditioner for the car may wait another month... probably have to replace the whole thing for $1500 or some ridiculous amount because I let it go dormant for months... waaawaaawaaa, ya know...
I am way overtired, but still somehow wired... my sniffles are fading, the usual course for the building of immunity against the cold/flu bugs each season... music helps and I can play mp3 files in the bbackground while I sit here now... oh, yay, more yay!...
sure, I'm poor and sometimes lonely and many aspects of life are missing from my ideal experience, but I am still rhyming and loving the feeling of expressing myself, even if I stash the rhymes away and nobody notices (I mean, really, who has time to follow me around everywhere I go?... we're not in high school anymore, right?... oh hush, I don't feel like growing up anymore, so there)...
I ate light again today, but still feel bloated... it'll probably take a few months of eating very light to lose this bloated feeling and for a year or more I've not maintained the light for more than a couple of weeks at most... every weekend the pizza is delivered or we go out to dinner somewhere and I forget (conveniently)...
no exercise, that's what is missing... so many missing pieces... la la la ment... the music stopped... I've got to find more mp3 files... ok, I did... I have a bunch in a folder and they play now... I'd love to share the playlist, but I don't have a program that will copy the playlist to a text file (next search, perhaps)... anyway,
work was good, life is good, I'm gonna lay down and get a few hours sleep now... it's actually 3:30am... shhh... I think I've caught up on most of today... thanks for being out there...
Labels: bills, Broadway, food, gadgets, loneliness, missing, muses, music, myspace, rhymes, sniffles, whine, yay
posted by candoor at 11:54 AM
6 Comments:
Too hurried, pushing too hard, too much to do. Missed catching up here, seems we are getting about the same amount of sleep.
There's always chocolate :)
Love, hugs and smiles too!
no chocolate for me...
well, just a cup of mocha in the morning the past three mornings and that is it... and now, the mocha is gone... so tomorrow it's either coffee or water... yup, I'm disciplined and serious this time...
I suppose this won't be as amusing (or frightening) if you've already read the next entry... but maybe you got lucky and came here first...
gonna be 175 pounds next Christmas, yup, and that's with pigging out all the way from Thanksgiving :)
goofy--->me
i must admit, if i thought mr. pregnant would shock you into so much action, i woulda never posted his youtube:z!
It takes such willpower to make these changes. But somehow if you concentrate on the payoff rather than what you are giving up it works better. But then I can give up chocolate and coffee for only periods of time and I'm back at them. I can't give them up for life.
Also having more bills than income sucks...so hugs for you today!!
u da shishnit!
I remember PoeticaL! Hi Kristy :)
hope all is well for you and your family... thanks for leaving a mark... I've always had enough will power to do whatever I want when I want to do it and I've always taken for granted that if I wasn't doing what I say I want to do then I really don't want to do what I want to do (or think I want to do) as much as I think I want to do it and when I really wannit, I will do it...
yup, makes sense to me :)
and Z - actually, my changes are kind of like the tide, slow... we might say I reacted to Mr Pregnant by ordering pizza... or perhaps not... in any case, utube is definitely an amazingf sociological phenomenon and I appreciate you exploring it and sharing some of what you find :)
and with some Apolyptica and Within Temptation playing, I roll myself into bed (exercise in bed is an old friend, even alone) to burn some calories and then fall asleep...
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