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well, you may be missing entries but we'll just keep rambling right along cuz there are always the archives, after all...
I did some computer window shopping on the internet today and decided I just might spend close to $2000 on a computer... maybe... I am settling on the INTEL CORE 2 DUO E6700 processor (I'd love the QUAD or EXTREME, but that would shoot the price up about six hundred more)... I considered the AMD ANTHLON X2 6000+ for more than $100 less, but I think I've decided on the INTEL... I am going to throw 4GM of RAM into it, possibly more... and I'm not sure if I'm kicking up to a video card with 600+ memory ($300-$400 more), but I'm putting one in that has at least 256MB memory on it... two 500GB hard drives, at least... the monitor will be minimum 22 inches... a TV Tuner is a must...
there's a 42 inch monitor for only $799 (when I consider I used to buy 27 inch televisions for that price, it doesn't seem so much) that has me sorta drooling, but we shall see... a 37 incher was $599... either could become a better TV than we've got, but then my computer becomes the house TV (and computer) and that won't work for me, so the big monitor is impractical unless we buy yet another computer... it's only dreaming, still, at this point, but it's dreaming with actual product names and codes and prices in front of me instead of just idly mentioning I wanna get a grown up computer someday, ya know?...
I am currently (that's in RealTime, ya know) listening to the new Rilo Kiley CD (I'll be seeing them on October 2nd {they are in Europe at the moment} if all goes well tomorrow when I hope to pick up tickets) and I'm liking what I hear (where are the Rilo Kiley fans out there I used to know?... ah, memories of passing through so many wonderful {and odd and even abrasive} internet communities and collectives over the years, at least I know there are two who are cheering the new release with me, even if they barely know I'm here at blogspot)...
I am actually listening to the songs on this computer, which is a rare treat (must have defragged properly or something this week)... I am not taking any chances browsing the web or visiting any sites while listening though and this is being typed in a notepad)... tomorrow is a Disney day, so I'm hanging out at home tonight (in spite of the smell of uninvited guest still parked on our couch, not to mention the increasing stench of tobacco... I've got my candles and speaking of candles, we watched Rent again this afternoon (would you light my candle, ya know?)... this time Rasputin stayed awake and saw the whole thing... I nodded off somewhere after the intermission, or during it, and woke for the end... it was the ColdStone ice cream, I think... we went out to Boston Market for lunch... I could have probably not eaten today after the eating I did yesterday, but I decided to be social and give into the roommates habits... back to salad for the rest of the week... after tomorrow at Disney... maybe I'll run tonight)...
so I think I'll keep the music on tonight, since Rasputin and Precious have already gone to sleep (at 7pm on Saturday night) and Odysseus may keep the TV off if I turn up the music... he's been in and out more than a dozen times in the past two hours, which, for Florida, is like leaving the door open and keeping the air conditioner on full blast... his phone seems to have died and so he's sitting on the couch reading the paper...
he's got all the signs of someone who has been homeless, though I know it couldn't have been for more than a few days (but homelessness is a lifestyle choice with certain compromises and habits), and possibly has the mindset to remain homeless if he does not find someone who will take him in... he must not have bathed today and I'm not sure if he's washed his clothes since he got here, as the smell is getting strong... may be time to actually light the candles and not just sit next to them...
it intrigues me that someone who makes practically no impact on the world in that he does not work or produce or do much of anything but take the bare minimum for survival from those who will give it to him fills his head with news of the world and local news from wherever he parks himself... he also seems to enjoy the history channel and old black and white movies since that is all that is ever on these days unless I change the channel...
my thought is that he looks for things to talk about when someone is around and open to talking and being up on current events, especially local events, and history gives him an appearance of being part of the world, even though he does little but sit on a couch, step out to smoke cigarettes, and walk to the closest convenience store to buy more cigarettes and Pepsi and chocolate bars... he seems to assume Raspy is paying for the food and everything else...
Raspy spoke about buying him a bus ticket, but that idea seems to be dragging as he might not have enough money, so I told him if he gives me $100 I'll cover the rest... Raspy said that Ody said he'd do that tomorrow or Monday... I told Raspy that, based on my observation, it does not sound like a plan... it sounds like putting off the movement until Raspy brings it up again... Ody might be hoping the subject won't come up again once Raspy starts his busy work week again... we'll see if Ody needs another nudge come Monday...
Raspy was concerned about what Ody would do once he and where he would stay once he gets back to his old home town and I explained that he'll have to face up to the choices everyone must make... live on the street, live in a homeless shelter, find someone else to mooch off, or get a job and pay for a living space of his own... he's never going to have to face that decision if someone is always going to pay for his living space and whatever anyone may think, facing that decision is what he needs to do most... hopefully he'll choose to start supporting himself... and bathing more often...
on to a local band called The Adorables music now since myspace is playing for me... though it's starting to skip a bit, which means memory is filling up... IE in Win98 does not seem to clear memory well and requires frequent reboots... so after The Adorables, I'll go back to the little music player box (once I had a system, big and strong, played music right up to the sky... once I had a system, now it's gone, got a music box to get me by... see, any lifestyle (from homeless to palace life) is some sort of compromise in this material world... sure I'd love a massive sound system like I had a while back in NYC, but I like the simple life more than the high-end corporate life it takes to pay for such toys, so I smile at the little music box cuz it plays music and represents the simpler life I am enjoying these days)...
switching over to Harry Chapin's Cottenpatch Gospel (on cassette, remember those?... it's the only medium I've got for this recording) now cuz I just happen to be in the mood for strange countrified gospel commentary and irreverence "it ain't easy growing up to be Jesus" as only Harry could do it... and a twang of loneliness rises as I put Harry music on as nobody shares him or most of the stuff closest to my heart these days... finding others with specific simpatico interests and cravings and addictions and passions is not as easy as it used to be... partly cuz as far as I can tell, humans seem to get more shut down, narrow, and settled into smaller lives as years pass and my interests, passions, and life gets more open and diverse... seems my curiosity is growing while everybody else's shrinks... but just as probability suggests that we are not the only sentient species in this universe, the same probability suggests that I am not the only one on this planet becoming more open and diverse as times goes by... hope springs eternal here...
hope you've got hope and fun happening at your end, shared, if possible, but at least joyous celebrating of something that inspires your creativity and/or passion and/or positivity and/or smile and more (or all of the above)... it's another wonderful life day here in the land of Zuzu's petals and I am happy you took the time to share it :)
I did some computer window shopping on the internet today and decided I just might spend close to $2000 on a computer... maybe... I am settling on the INTEL CORE 2 DUO E6700 processor (I'd love the QUAD or EXTREME, but that would shoot the price up about six hundred more)... I considered the AMD ANTHLON X2 6000+ for more than $100 less, but I think I've decided on the INTEL... I am going to throw 4GM of RAM into it, possibly more... and I'm not sure if I'm kicking up to a video card with 600+ memory ($300-$400 more), but I'm putting one in that has at least 256MB memory on it... two 500GB hard drives, at least... the monitor will be minimum 22 inches... a TV Tuner is a must...
there's a 42 inch monitor for only $799 (when I consider I used to buy 27 inch televisions for that price, it doesn't seem so much) that has me sorta drooling, but we shall see... a 37 incher was $599... either could become a better TV than we've got, but then my computer becomes the house TV (and computer) and that won't work for me, so the big monitor is impractical unless we buy yet another computer... it's only dreaming, still, at this point, but it's dreaming with actual product names and codes and prices in front of me instead of just idly mentioning I wanna get a grown up computer someday, ya know?...
I am currently (that's in RealTime, ya know) listening to the new Rilo Kiley CD (I'll be seeing them on October 2nd {they are in Europe at the moment} if all goes well tomorrow when I hope to pick up tickets) and I'm liking what I hear (where are the Rilo Kiley fans out there I used to know?... ah, memories of passing through so many wonderful {and odd and even abrasive} internet communities and collectives over the years, at least I know there are two who are cheering the new release with me, even if they barely know I'm here at blogspot)...
I am actually listening to the songs on this computer, which is a rare treat (must have defragged properly or something this week)... I am not taking any chances browsing the web or visiting any sites while listening though and this is being typed in a notepad)... tomorrow is a Disney day, so I'm hanging out at home tonight (in spite of the smell of uninvited guest still parked on our couch, not to mention the increasing stench of tobacco... I've got my candles and speaking of candles, we watched Rent again this afternoon (would you light my candle, ya know?)... this time Rasputin stayed awake and saw the whole thing... I nodded off somewhere after the intermission, or during it, and woke for the end... it was the ColdStone ice cream, I think... we went out to Boston Market for lunch... I could have probably not eaten today after the eating I did yesterday, but I decided to be social and give into the roommates habits... back to salad for the rest of the week... after tomorrow at Disney... maybe I'll run tonight)...
so I think I'll keep the music on tonight, since Rasputin and Precious have already gone to sleep (at 7pm on Saturday night) and Odysseus may keep the TV off if I turn up the music... he's been in and out more than a dozen times in the past two hours, which, for Florida, is like leaving the door open and keeping the air conditioner on full blast... his phone seems to have died and so he's sitting on the couch reading the paper...
he's got all the signs of someone who has been homeless, though I know it couldn't have been for more than a few days (but homelessness is a lifestyle choice with certain compromises and habits), and possibly has the mindset to remain homeless if he does not find someone who will take him in... he must not have bathed today and I'm not sure if he's washed his clothes since he got here, as the smell is getting strong... may be time to actually light the candles and not just sit next to them...
it intrigues me that someone who makes practically no impact on the world in that he does not work or produce or do much of anything but take the bare minimum for survival from those who will give it to him fills his head with news of the world and local news from wherever he parks himself... he also seems to enjoy the history channel and old black and white movies since that is all that is ever on these days unless I change the channel...
my thought is that he looks for things to talk about when someone is around and open to talking and being up on current events, especially local events, and history gives him an appearance of being part of the world, even though he does little but sit on a couch, step out to smoke cigarettes, and walk to the closest convenience store to buy more cigarettes and Pepsi and chocolate bars... he seems to assume Raspy is paying for the food and everything else...
Raspy spoke about buying him a bus ticket, but that idea seems to be dragging as he might not have enough money, so I told him if he gives me $100 I'll cover the rest... Raspy said that Ody said he'd do that tomorrow or Monday... I told Raspy that, based on my observation, it does not sound like a plan... it sounds like putting off the movement until Raspy brings it up again... Ody might be hoping the subject won't come up again once Raspy starts his busy work week again... we'll see if Ody needs another nudge come Monday...
Raspy was concerned about what Ody would do once he and where he would stay once he gets back to his old home town and I explained that he'll have to face up to the choices everyone must make... live on the street, live in a homeless shelter, find someone else to mooch off, or get a job and pay for a living space of his own... he's never going to have to face that decision if someone is always going to pay for his living space and whatever anyone may think, facing that decision is what he needs to do most... hopefully he'll choose to start supporting himself... and bathing more often...
on to a local band called The Adorables music now since myspace is playing for me... though it's starting to skip a bit, which means memory is filling up... IE in Win98 does not seem to clear memory well and requires frequent reboots... so after The Adorables, I'll go back to the little music player box (once I had a system, big and strong, played music right up to the sky... once I had a system, now it's gone, got a music box to get me by... see, any lifestyle (from homeless to palace life) is some sort of compromise in this material world... sure I'd love a massive sound system like I had a while back in NYC, but I like the simple life more than the high-end corporate life it takes to pay for such toys, so I smile at the little music box cuz it plays music and represents the simpler life I am enjoying these days)...
switching over to Harry Chapin's Cottenpatch Gospel (on cassette, remember those?... it's the only medium I've got for this recording) now cuz I just happen to be in the mood for strange countrified gospel commentary and irreverence "it ain't easy growing up to be Jesus" as only Harry could do it... and a twang of loneliness rises as I put Harry music on as nobody shares him or most of the stuff closest to my heart these days... finding others with specific simpatico interests and cravings and addictions and passions is not as easy as it used to be... partly cuz as far as I can tell, humans seem to get more shut down, narrow, and settled into smaller lives as years pass and my interests, passions, and life gets more open and diverse... seems my curiosity is growing while everybody else's shrinks... but just as probability suggests that we are not the only sentient species in this universe, the same probability suggests that I am not the only one on this planet becoming more open and diverse as times goes by... hope springs eternal here...
hope you've got hope and fun happening at your end, shared, if possible, but at least joyous celebrating of something that inspires your creativity and/or passion and/or positivity and/or smile and more (or all of the above)... it's another wonderful life day here in the land of Zuzu's petals and I am happy you took the time to share it :)
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posted by candoor at 10:20 PM
2 Comments:
It sounds like things are going to start moving in the right direction w/Ody. You have certainly been more than patient.
I also think its promising that you are perusing computer options. Just exploring, nothing final, no pressure. ...but you'll have a better idea of the correct selection for the effort. :)
Hope you're having a great day!!
wonderful day out at Disney...
we shall see tomorrow if Ody follows through on his words to Rasputin...
the decision about a computer is whether to put $2000 into a computer that'll probably be cutting edge for a week, good for a couple of years, and relatively obsolete the following year - or - just upgrade to a serviceable computer for about a quarter of the price - or - go with the minimum for even less...
if I didn't have the drains on my wallet that I have around me, it would be a simpler decision, but I seem to have frequent unexpected expenses because I share space with a teenager who has no income and a roommate who is stretched thin... our uninvited guest probably kicked this month's electric bill up $50-$100...
I think I am thinking too much... which means I am not making a decision... so I'll let it be for now and maybe decide tomorrow :)
very great day though, hopes yours was too... and the rest of you too, wherever you are :)
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