3am again

yes, this datestamp is backdated a few hours, as usual, cuz there was no entry wednesday and this is all about wednesday and that is just the way it is, for what it's worth)...

the softball team is gonna hate me tomorrow if i don't figure out how to wake up and be on target from the mound (i pitch, in case you didn't know)... but i had fun tonight allowing myself to be lead astray from the sensible go to sleep early on wednesday nights commitment i made to myself and the team by the nicest of peoples :)

i played hooky, sorta, today... i went downtown for a two hour conference and took the whole day away for business... hey, the conference was scheduled for four hours and i did have to drive through downtown rush hour traffic, after all... the conference was a relative waste of time as they went over stuff i already knew, but it was good to get out a bit...

afterwards, i stopped for fish food (a local fish restaurant) and went home for a nap before heading back out to meet a new friend at one of the local poetry reading coffee houses that i've been meaning to get to and now, finally did... intellectual word-people, what a new and exciting environment for potential sharing... the do it every wednesday night, but starting the end of this month i'll be playing softball three nights a week, including wednesdays, so i might show up late and stinky from time to time... we'll see how much they welcome that, aye?...

and then the phone stuck to my ear for a couple of hours or so and that was nice... oh yeah, i left one thing out... there i was almost walking out of a store with a new laptop as there's a pretty good sale at office depot this week when the phone rings and it's Minnie in need of money... does the universe actually know when i am about to treat myself?... so once again, as it has been for years, i put off getting a new laptop so i can help someone else...

and i write it here to remember why i do it... it felt wonderful... and i have a laptop i use the works... i have a mac desktop i never even hooked up yet cuz i haven't had the time... and i am still not looking forward to getting used to a buggy Windows Vista... i might still decide to impulsively buy that laptop if it's still on sale the next time i think about it and have time to stop at an office depot, but until i sinf a partner who gives me reason to reconsider my altruistic ways, i suppose i'll just be me... or as the song from Rent goes, today for you, tomorrow for me...

someday, or so the karmatologists tell me, it will all come around and i can share it with those who deserve it most, me and a certain angel in NYC who was my best friend for longer than anyone else in this life (and i hope to find her again someday, hear that dink?... omigosh, or was that ding?... did my memory just blink?... help, help, dementia alert... i miss you ding) and whomever is around at the time...

hey, we all have blog names, remember?...

so we shall see if these poetry/prose readers actually get me to take words more seriously and write stuff that i might read in public somewhere down the road (feel free to suggest anything in my vast archives that may be worth reading in public cuz you know i'm not gonna choose unless hell freezes over or something like that)... most of what was read tonight was more prose story than poetry, but then, just cuz it doesn't rhyme, that doesn't mean it's not poetry, right?... how many double negatives was that?...

enough, i should sleep now... besides, you have better things to do than to read this sort of self-indulgent self-analysis and detailed record of whatever passes through my head... and if you don't, well then, go find better things to do right now, dangit!...

laughter is good... may you find more of it :)