could it be?

well oh my good griefnish... the explosion we were all waiting for almost happened (oh?... can four blog entries be considered an actual explosion or at least the start of one?... time will tell, aye?), but the deeper truth at the heart of the matter is that this is not the babbler's place, even though the babble has bubbled up from the depths like molten tar in southern california, this is the place of the human trials, the experiment long attempted since the days of post-amy trauma syndrome (pats, as opposed to ptsd, cuz mine comes with an instatiable desire to be patted on the head and told everything is going to be alright, whereas the ptsd can be a lot more volitile and unpredictable), so utterly failing in so many ways and yet, when comparison studies are performed by anthropological mathematicians and linguistics long into the future, perhaps the subtle differences will be noted and the amazing journey will not have been in vain...

if you look around, they even seeped into the empty spaces around here (ooooo, cheating?... or is that just playing godish games?... well, it is my blogworld to create, isn't it?... so much fun it is to write la la la la la la la, hey)...

in any case, the land behind the candoor was rocked by a 4.0 quake this week and what with thereal continuing to provide five minute snapshots of the actual daily life, this RealTime™ stomping ground is floating around in the limbo, at least for the moment, from whence it first came... how exciting, aye?... i mean, how low can we go?... why to the bottomless pit, my pretty, and your little dog too... but then, most people just play the bait and switch game, the passive aggressive set up to leave you exposed, vulnerable, naked and alone... and then the best of them play dumb in public as if they don't understand what you are talking about after they agreed in private... but enough bringing work home, this is the humanness of the human i was longing so to learn about and naturally, i am repulsed by the waste of the chosen ignorance and fear-based confusions...

what?... yeah, work is as dysfunctional as ever... it still amazes me that people with advanced degrees and years of experience at their jobs can be so insecure and lack the basic confidence in their ability to trust their team and instead, look to undermine others consciously and subconsciously in order to feel better about themselves somehow, or whyever they do it... it is sad when a team of adult professionals in a mental health care hospital for children can not trust each other...

meanwhile, i really ought to be sleeping, so i'm gonna call this entry done and send it out to the blog and wish you a wonderful night and an even better day...

nite nite :)