repeated?

if this was repeated, well, just read it again or ignore it, as you wish... you might want to know that this entry contains actual curse words and adult themes and perhaps even porn, which will probably get a lot more people to visit based on this paragraph alone, if not read it...

silly humans...

in a very spontaneous moment of manic clicking on a links, a moment stolen from sleep after a good four hour block that left the body more refreshed than usual, but still tired and wanting more and the mind in a similar condition, i hear a voice talking about ass-fucking (if you are offended, i wonder if you distract yourself with rules too much to actually learn and communicate and understand and be aware of your self and life and the universe around you, but that's beside the point as is most things) over the music and browse through the open tabs in the browser that i have not explored yet to find the voice coming from this link i found in my myspace mail i pause there to a guy talking a strange form of english (using some terms in his one-sided conversations that are unique to either his site or some web communications i am not familiar with) and it appears he is streaming a video of his internet radio show though i am guessing i have to subscribe or something to actually hear the 90 or so viewers he is appearing to be talking to...

The link is to a blogtv account apparently of a reverend 8 who lists the following Personal Tags: religion God comedy variety current events youtube News blogs Discussions ghosts supernatural martial arts... and appears to have been awarded (the site does not say by who or whom, but there are some links to follow if you have the time and inclunation... i don't have the time or enough inclination at the moment) the following: #30 Most Friendliest This Week, #38 Most Friendliest This Month, #24 Most Friendliest All Time, #3 Most Subscribed This Week, #7 Most Subscribed This Month, #18 Most Subscribed All Time... there does not seem to be much point or coherence or meaning to the other than he's taking entries for something that is not explained well, but seems to be some sort of impersonation contest and i am wondering if this is some sort of pre-show time and whether the listeners are going to actually come on audio or video so the audience can actually hear or see their impersonations and what am i doing spending time trying to figure this out, anyway?...

curiosity about new technology killed the cat, or at least stole sleep from the critter and me too... anyway, you may recall how much i try to like people and internet communicators, but without the other side of the conversations this guy smoking a cigarette and cursing and belittling women and trying to come off too cool for school with the typical i don't give a fuck attitude that so many radio shock jocks and wanna-be celebrities try to sell to kids these days is not impressing me enough to want to stay with this show... maybe some of his recorded shows are worth the time, but he's not impressed me enough to explore more at the moment...

so i close that site and head back to where the browsing started (across dozens of sites yet unexplored and some that may not be) to find an old friend (through reading words on the net, though words can bring the feeling of knowing someone so much better, more intimately, as if... could he/she be someone long lost from my past?... and the chills roll as i read the words

i think of web pages as sign posts, markers along the path of life... this is why i delete none, for the simple word i leave up on some obscure page that i may have long forgotten might be found by the person who turns out to be the most important person in this life for me and if i deleted that page, those words, that image or whatever was out here on the web, i might have missed the best moment of this life... every time i think about deleting something i put up on the web, this last thought keeps my finger off the delete key... food for thought for those who want to keep in touch :)