junk in the funk
for whatever impulsive reasons I might create or discover if I took the time to assign reason to the choices I make, I was awake until 4am last night (that's just a few hours ago) trying to convince this computer to function properly as it conbtinuously refused to download my email... in my sleepless way, I attempted to uninstall various programs that may have been interferring with the connection to the email server (including the anti-virus program I just installed recently) and finally, after many hours, I went to the ISP site and chatted briefly with a techie who said they were having server problems... and apparently, they stil are...
all night long...
and who knows how long before that as the last time I downloaded email was somewhere around the ninth... I think that would be October... there is just so many hundreds of junk mails for any single mail worth reading that I often delete everything rather than spend the time it would take to sort through it all... and that is with hundred of filters... my website addresses have been completely shut down for a long while now (I just don't have time to change all the links)... email has been a gross failure as a communication tool for me...
maybe it just does not serve as an open door system of contact at this point in it's development... so one of these days I will try to find time to reset and create some new addresses and give them to the few people I'd like to keep in touch with in a more direct and personal way... through the written word... and the walls?... ah, to trust the written word personally again, that would be a truly great adventure...
so groggy is the state of the mind and body this morning and that does not bode well for the concert we have in less than ten hours... and the rest of the week, for that matter... what with work and two more concerts Friday and Saturday and another one Monday...
and I wonder why I am alone most of the time? J
I figure I'll slow down eventually enough for someone to will keep up with me someday (logic, I suppose)... anyway, have fun out there, cuz life's too short to let the foibles of technology or the fog of sleeplessness or anything get in the way of the pleasure every experience can be... and just in case you've emailed me, well, you can always leave a comment or send a private myspace message, but in fact, that is one big reason my telephone number is out here on the web where anyone can find it and I love you guys who've noticed for seeing and using it...
yay J
all night long...
and who knows how long before that as the last time I downloaded email was somewhere around the ninth... I think that would be October... there is just so many hundreds of junk mails for any single mail worth reading that I often delete everything rather than spend the time it would take to sort through it all... and that is with hundred of filters... my website addresses have been completely shut down for a long while now (I just don't have time to change all the links)... email has been a gross failure as a communication tool for me...
maybe it just does not serve as an open door system of contact at this point in it's development... so one of these days I will try to find time to reset and create some new addresses and give them to the few people I'd like to keep in touch with in a more direct and personal way... through the written word... and the walls?... ah, to trust the written word personally again, that would be a truly great adventure...
so groggy is the state of the mind and body this morning and that does not bode well for the concert we have in less than ten hours... and the rest of the week, for that matter... what with work and two more concerts Friday and Saturday and another one Monday...
and I wonder why I am alone most of the time? J
I figure I'll slow down eventually enough for someone to will keep up with me someday (logic, I suppose)... anyway, have fun out there, cuz life's too short to let the foibles of technology or the fog of sleeplessness or anything get in the way of the pleasure every experience can be... and just in case you've emailed me, well, you can always leave a comment or send a private myspace message, but in fact, that is one big reason my telephone number is out here on the web where anyone can find it and I love you guys who've noticed for seeing and using it...
yay J
posted by candoor at 8:04 AM
4 Comments:
I have had something of an energetic infusion of something very big and very important and this sense of gathering or conspiring of the universe in some way that is all coming about with an absurd combination of a series of events from the lowest of the sorrows in life to the highest of highs, and I almost feel this energy, this knocking down of walls, this screaming at these barriers of all that is blocking and I just want to scream to you to trust, to trust again; it is okay to trust, it is okay to take the chance, you have so much to give, to offer, to be, to infuse so many with. An energy, a life force, an essence, whatever word is there, it is there, it is Truth. Trust the personal word, trust the personal voice. You CAN trust. I CAN trust. It is possible. I know it and I know it bigger and MORE than ever before. And I too was up til 4 a.m. in the morning. This energy, this Light, this gathering.
Connection, conductivity, there is power in it. It just requires stepping THROUGH the door.
HUGS, smiles, Love, and all that is magical and energetic and passionate be lit in glowing intensity in you, in me, and in everyone. Just step through the door.
YAY for gatherings :)
sounds like what I call catharsis, healing, and rebirth... it happens to be every now and then... usually accompanied by singing, wonderful physical exertion, shining, falling in love, and great sex... in fact, I am awaiting the next time and though I've been awaiting it for some time, I know it could come at any moment...
it's always out there :)
(and my door is always open, though getting through the maze through the garden takes quite a unique person... for better or worse, as they say, I like it this way :)
hee hee, and I happen to love mazes, and labyrinths. So as far as I am concerned with you, there will always be a way to get through, even if it takes garden shears.
Yay for gatherings indeed. Quite a gathering it is.
and everyone said?
YAY!!!!!!!
I bow to the goddess with garden sheers :)
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