I feel like I went to a garden party
and ate too much... skipped the gym tonight and indulged in chicken strips from Donato's... it happened like this...
I climbed right into the big green chair after work intending to nap until 8pm when I'd wake to watch Prison Break and then tear between the basketball game and 24... unfortunately, Precious called and woke me at around 7pm cuz she once again did not plan ahead and needed money for dinner and Rasputin still has no phone... I told her I'd leave money on the counter if her dad didn't wake up... she called back a couple more times waking both me and Raspy and then Raspy, angry cuz he doesn't get to sleep much because he works nights and Precious always seems to realize she needs something, like food, at the last minute when he's asleep... she refuses to pack a lunch or dinner cuz junk food tastes better, he indulges her extravagant eating out cuz it's easier than debating, food constantly spoils in the fridge, and I get to be in the middle ever since he doesn't have a phone (months now)...
so I'm awake and grumbly and Raspy is awake and not happy and he does what he usually does, orders Donato's and I, feeling like I should indulge myself because I'm feeling like my healthy plans are foiled again, order the chicken strips and decide to watch the whole game and skip the gym... stupid self-pity eating habit doesn't die very easily and of course, I'm feeling hungry now...
and I spent $12 I didn't have to spend to boot...
so I set myself back a day or few in my get back in shape goals and didn't even enjoy it and now I'm considering skipping my intended birthday treat of a favorite foods meal on Friday cuz I over-extended my intake for the week already... and I want to say it's alright now, I learned my lesson well, you see you can't please everyone so you've got to please myself but I'm not actually learning this lesson well enough it seems... if there was chocolate in the house I'd probably eat it... no time for myspace or anything else now... if I stay up I'll probably eat more and it won't be pretty... might be sweet though...
stop making jokes, turkey...
the weight goal I set for my birthday is probably out of sensible reach now... bummer... and Ohio State lost too... I should be from Florida...
irony, irreverence, and so much emo...
how was your night? :)
I climbed right into the big green chair after work intending to nap until 8pm when I'd wake to watch Prison Break and then tear between the basketball game and 24... unfortunately, Precious called and woke me at around 7pm cuz she once again did not plan ahead and needed money for dinner and Rasputin still has no phone... I told her I'd leave money on the counter if her dad didn't wake up... she called back a couple more times waking both me and Raspy and then Raspy, angry cuz he doesn't get to sleep much because he works nights and Precious always seems to realize she needs something, like food, at the last minute when he's asleep... she refuses to pack a lunch or dinner cuz junk food tastes better, he indulges her extravagant eating out cuz it's easier than debating, food constantly spoils in the fridge, and I get to be in the middle ever since he doesn't have a phone (months now)...
so I'm awake and grumbly and Raspy is awake and not happy and he does what he usually does, orders Donato's and I, feeling like I should indulge myself because I'm feeling like my healthy plans are foiled again, order the chicken strips and decide to watch the whole game and skip the gym... stupid self-pity eating habit doesn't die very easily and of course, I'm feeling hungry now...
and I spent $12 I didn't have to spend to boot...
so I set myself back a day or few in my get back in shape goals and didn't even enjoy it and now I'm considering skipping my intended birthday treat of a favorite foods meal on Friday cuz I over-extended my intake for the week already... and I want to say it's alright now, I learned my lesson well, you see you can't please everyone so you've got to please myself but I'm not actually learning this lesson well enough it seems... if there was chocolate in the house I'd probably eat it... no time for myspace or anything else now... if I stay up I'll probably eat more and it won't be pretty... might be sweet though...
stop making jokes, turkey...
the weight goal I set for my birthday is probably out of sensible reach now... bummer... and Ohio State lost too... I should be from Florida...
irony, irreverence, and so much emo...
how was your night? :)
Labels: bloat, choices, doh, emo, environs, food, loneliness, sloth, TV, weight, whine
posted by candoor at 11:59 PM
3 Comments:
lol Precious never plans ahead
Alas the young, have such faith that they'll survive till the end (of the week) and start the party all over again ...
Battling with weight - it's down to what you ingest and what you burn - if you burn more than you ingest, then like a bear coming out of winter hibernation, one should be ready for the festive spring feast, to put on excess fat before next winter's long sleep.
whatever you went thru at edwards airforce base is easier than sesshin, trust me...
ah, another day, another perspective... without any effort or stress, I fasted today... another pound gone before I started at the gym... no interruption to the evening nap (key to the health and weight loss), 100 minutes at the gym on the LifeCycle thing, and here I am again, smiling and possibly still reaching to Friday goal...
thanks for the encouragement Q, if you ever make it to Orlando, do stop by :)
Z - sounds like fun to me, but then, I am in the any challenge is gonna be fun mindset these days... I hope you are recovering and find it was, on balance, more positive than negative... if not, I want tom hear about it even more...
hope all is well in your life, S...
and anybody else silently reading, BOO! - I love you even if you don't speak up (nyaa nyaa :)
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