I should be tired
but I feel wired... 65 minutes on the Lifecycle was enough for the muscles, but not enough to burn off the excess energy and suddenly I'm hungry again so instead of sleeping, I'm gonna snack on a high protein meal just to change the pace and give the impulsive satisfaction to the taste buds (but they still don't get cake, candy, or chocolate yet)...
maybe I should have chosen old episodes of The Twilight Zone and the big green chair to put me to sleep instead of coming here to the computer... I did only get 4 hours sleep last night... and I have a concert wednesday night that's almost 2 hours away, so I will be tired Thursday...
maybe it was the fun Z0tl was having in his kitchen...
or the new best time for 65 minutes at the gym...
or the body spread in front of me...
the bench press faces the Lifecycle and anyone using it lays back giving the Lifecycle occupant a view of them from between the knees... very distracting (could even be repulsive at times... or inspiring, if the energy is up and the body is right... tonight the body was quite right, but of course, bodyguard {boyfriend or husband} was right at her side the whole time watching my eyes... sad that some must feel so insecure that they are so obviously defensive and possessive... anyway, to infinity and beyond!)...
yes, I suppose the silliness of Galaxy Quest and my current never give up, never surrender mind set since starting the workouts again are behind this irreverent disregard for the sleep the body is really supposed to need, especially during times of great transition and healing and this body is going through both... but heck, when the child wants to play the child wants to play and when there's nobody around there's silly audio-visual stimuli, music, words, and food...
I hope you are finding fun in whatever you are doing...
and love, love yourself, life is better that way :)
maybe I should have chosen old episodes of The Twilight Zone and the big green chair to put me to sleep instead of coming here to the computer... I did only get 4 hours sleep last night... and I have a concert wednesday night that's almost 2 hours away, so I will be tired Thursday...
maybe it was the fun Z0tl was having in his kitchen...
or the new best time for 65 minutes at the gym...
or the body spread in front of me...
the bench press faces the Lifecycle and anyone using it lays back giving the Lifecycle occupant a view of them from between the knees... very distracting (could even be repulsive at times... or inspiring, if the energy is up and the body is right... tonight the body was quite right, but of course, bodyguard {boyfriend or husband} was right at her side the whole time watching my eyes... sad that some must feel so insecure that they are so obviously defensive and possessive... anyway, to infinity and beyond!)...
yes, I suppose the silliness of Galaxy Quest and my current never give up, never surrender mind set since starting the workouts again are behind this irreverent disregard for the sleep the body is really supposed to need, especially during times of great transition and healing and this body is going through both... but heck, when the child wants to play the child wants to play and when there's nobody around there's silly audio-visual stimuli, music, words, and food...
I hope you are finding fun in whatever you are doing...
and love, love yourself, life is better that way :)
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posted by candoor at 11:59 PM
3 Comments:
Just fluttering through to say hello, catch up with the gym happenings, the chocolate happenings, and the yay happenings.
I have so much chocolate to choose from at the moment thanks to a kind soul, and so there is an orgy every single day, with a different flavor each time. What are you gonna do...if it's front of me I must eat it (isn't that a sort of zen thing?)
Keep up the amazing discipline as I have none right now, and thank you for caring enough about you to make some changes and to make a difference. You're still a hero, yanno. :)
....and you are loved.
i think you'd do good to go back to going to an insane number of concerts and spent less time counting minutes on lifecycle:z!
either way, still no new computer i guess... turn on the air in the car and press clutch 50 times, you'll burn 8 more calories...
after years of laziness and self-indulgence, this sort of insane self-discipline is the only way I know of to get back to where I once belonged (ya know, Jo Jo? :)
when I am 170 pounds again, or at least 180, I'll have the right to mock myself much more (but that's never stopped me before, aye)...
thank you for the words and for caring cuz even though you know I appreciate you being here, I appreciate it much more bouncy when you leave words :)
Meg & Dia in concert tomorrow night in St. Pete (almost 2 hours away)... alas, long drive all by myself, but I've got no real music loving friends around here and paying for Precious every time is not working for me for a number of reasons...
no sad, must let the love and music and energy flow through me and be all zen about it... I am complete, alone and together, at one with everything, yay and all :)
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