flip flopping (part one... or maybe two)
i am not sure i believe in people anymore... or maybe it is that i am not sure i want to... on the other hand, i am sure i want to sometimes... and then, i am not sure other times... people can be so indecisive...
O . . O
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i want to believe somebody cares
but i may not let anyone get the chance
cuz no one has ever cared as much as me
not in the physical reality
no one has ever cared as much as me
not just egocentricity
no one has ever cared as much as me
no one has ever really understood
so why bother to explain
things didn't go quite according to plan
somewhere along the way i stopped caring
as much as i can
and maybe that is what it truly means
to be human
so what's up with you guys?... softball was fun tonight, though i felt like a clutz which is a new experience for me... maybe the body is actually starting to deteriorate beyond the point of no return and just won't do what it used to do... or maybe i'm just so far out of practice that i am a clutz... it's not much fun being a clutz... and my finger hurts... the old comfortable broken-in glove i bought is wonderfully comfortable and easy to bend and all, but it has next to no padding and so catching the ball can be painful... and one time, at softball camp, i bruised my index finger and it's swelling and ouchie... though i am still typing, so maybe it went kind of numb...
it was fun though, mostly... i did get to practice hitting tonight and the body seemed to remember how to do that pretty well...
all i ever wanted was someone to care
the way i care
is there no one close to me?
all i ever wanted was someone to share
the way i share
forever to infinity
all i ever wanted was someone to love
the way i love
full unconditionally
all i ever wanted was someone to be
the way i am
completely open honesty
always to the next level
always to the next extreme
always together in everything
is it to remain a dream?
all i ever wanted was someone to know
all that i know
is there no one close to me?
all i ever wanted was someone to feel
the way i feel
forever to infinity
all i ever wanted was someone to love
the way i love
most unconditionally
all i ever wanted was someone to be
completely with me
as one with me
hey, so what about that sleep thing, anyway?
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but i may not let anyone get the chance
cuz no one has ever cared as much as me
not in the physical reality
no one has ever cared as much as me
not just egocentricity
no one has ever cared as much as me
no one has ever really understood
so why bother to explain
things didn't go quite according to plan
somewhere along the way i stopped caring
as much as i can
and maybe that is what it truly means
to be human
so what's up with you guys?... softball was fun tonight, though i felt like a clutz which is a new experience for me... maybe the body is actually starting to deteriorate beyond the point of no return and just won't do what it used to do... or maybe i'm just so far out of practice that i am a clutz... it's not much fun being a clutz... and my finger hurts... the old comfortable broken-in glove i bought is wonderfully comfortable and easy to bend and all, but it has next to no padding and so catching the ball can be painful... and one time, at softball camp, i bruised my index finger and it's swelling and ouchie... though i am still typing, so maybe it went kind of numb...
it was fun though, mostly... i did get to practice hitting tonight and the body seemed to remember how to do that pretty well...
the way i care
is there no one close to me?
all i ever wanted was someone to share
the way i share
forever to infinity
all i ever wanted was someone to love
the way i love
full unconditionally
all i ever wanted was someone to be
the way i am
completely open honesty
always to the next level
always to the next extreme
always together in everything
is it to remain a dream?
all i ever wanted was someone to know
all that i know
is there no one close to me?
all i ever wanted was someone to feel
the way i feel
forever to infinity
all i ever wanted was someone to love
the way i love
most unconditionally
all i ever wanted was someone to be
completely with me
as one with me
hey, so what about that sleep thing, anyway?
Labels: dichotomy, egmo, ego, erreverence, ethos, karma, patience, perspective, tbc, zen
posted by candoor at 11:59 PM
4 Comments:
beliefs are for teh birds.
empirical proofs are for teh insects.
knowing without doubt is for teh buddhas.
beyond lies teh z?tl
kinda like pkd's wub only far slinkier.
I realized it's better not to believe in people and not to expect anything from them. Then when they actually do something unexpected which previously before making the decision not to expect was actually expected it comes as a pleasant surprise and can be quite nice.
(Is kind of a morbid philosophy tho.. )
Why do You think we read You?
Coz we luv U! ;-)
Have a Lovely Weekend!
(( hug ))
perhaps... yet there is always another point of view to explore...
believing in someone can be the most amazing ride of all...
thank you for reading me and being here and letting me know...
and for flowing with my mind drifts :)
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