for the sharing

i write this for the sharing that i want to continue
i write this for the sharing that i hope will be
i write this for the sharing of the dream we can make true
i write this for the sharing that makes we of you and me
i write this for the sharing we can do
i write this for the sharing for me and for you

for the sharing we share, for the sharing with the one i dream of, for the sharing with all for posterity, for the sharing of the dream that we call love... ah, as John Denver said, what one man can do is dream, what one many can do is love...

hello again old friends, new friends, dear readers, and you...

there are several missing blogs this week as there was something going on every day (and twice on Sunday, Saturday too, even Friday), so after a nap (and still pushing sleep limits so I'll try to keep this brief and start the week off with more than 4 hours sleep tonight), i come to say hello and catch up a bit and let you know that the blogs might still appear, suddenly as they often do, after the fact… maybe tomorrow night…

midnight (as the 10th started) was the start of Precious's birthday so she's standing here talking to me because she doesn't work tomorrow and comes out to talk after midnight cuz i am usually away, so my focus is not here much, but then, that's life with roommates or family unless you lock yourself in your room and i don't,,, in fact, i am seldom in my bedroom at all… i haven't slept in my bed since before the Oklahoma trip… the big green chair just swallows me most nights (and besides, the bed is broken) and since i seldom sleep more than a few hours at a time… that's life these days…

while the joy and excitement of falling in love has not occurred, the fun of meeting new people, enjoying creative stimulation, and playing games is in abundance these days… and music, music is returning (which feeds the fire and desire to share all the more), even if i haven't found the music-loving friends or partner just yet… so a few key elements are missing (like a cuddle buddy, for a third, and a wild libido fantasy, for a fourth), but several key elements are falling into place and that means there are reasons for big YAYs offline again… and it is much goodness to feel and to see that i do not feel desperation to rush to fill feed the hungers and fill the empty places in my sharing life…

musical memories lead me to link-up my once-upon-a-time beginnings of a musical web world in a comment response and maybe that means i am on the road to reawakening (which could very well lead back to reawakening candora as well, which would be a wonderful sign of life from the heart energy center)… and one of these days i may even listen to the quickly thrown together first mix on this blog's playlist and bring a bit more continuity, or at least more personal meaning to it… i did spend a little time doing just that this weekend, though the differences may be too subtle to be noticed by anyone other than me for the moment and i still feel it is disorganized and incomplete (even though i reached the maximum 75 song limit, alas, so moving toward my own player on my site may happen sooner rather than later)… anyway, the musical links, thanks to you dear readers noticing that music is returning again and specifically that the musical library is growing again, for anyone who has the time and interest:

yeah, I used to keep a list...

organized or something...

once upon a time...

in my wildest dreams?

and to shift gears just cuz it's fun (and can be exciting, as i kind of mentioned in a comment at Smash's place recently), I returned to myspace for an hour or two this weekend out popped a blog entry (that will probably be one of the inserted blog entries in the past week that might come tomorrow) and in brief time i spend wandering randomly through my web links at myspace i rediscovered many wonderful people and this thought came to mind in what maybe have been a flurry of clever flirtation (or simply egocentric folly, foolishness, or futility, but that might just be the humility failsafe trying to protect me or bring some balance or something good)… all hot wet left-wasted-and-trembling (or is that prostrate and twitching?) libido fantasies aside, every now and then, the real Miss Ass Bandit stands up and shows just why i love loving her…

and everybody ought to find a way to see this Xmas Movie…

one of the browser tabs that has remained for a week or so leads to the SNL episode guide which brings back many powerful, wonderful, and semi-sweet memories… i just have not had time to explore, which may be for the best as it is something i would so much rather share than explore by myself… some people ask (depending on physical age) where we were when the Millenium turned or when Berlin Wall fell or when John Lennon was shot, if you're older, when men walked on the moon or even when Kennedy was shot, but i'll ask things like where were you when you first ay the Samarai Chef sketch or Andy Kaufman doing Elvis… hey, we all have our priorities, ya know?...

and that's about it… a bit of web wandering to give you stuff to explore as opposed to just indulging my ego (not that i didn't here, but in a different way cuz after all, that is what personal blogging is largely about, becoming the center of the universe and seeing things through my eyes and telling you all about it as if i am some sort of authority or prophet or guru or news reporter or something and the tales i have to share are vital to your existence, but then, i am the authority on what is going on inside my head, after all, and maybe you actually do want to know, right?) and drone on and one about what is great and what is missing from life in RealTime™ today and the past few days and these days in general… I'll save the catch up for tomorrow and yesterday…

thanks many appreciative hugs for stopping by… you know how to reach me and remember, i want you to :)