socializing

so i tell myself that it's Wednesday night and last week i stayed out late and was a wreck the next night and pitched poorly and i should get to sleep earlier tonight and here i am bleary-eyed, teary-eyed, burning-eyed just getting home after a fun fun fun night at BBQ and trivia (and we won too) and then hanging at a local bar playing darts and talking about this that and the other thing (and for all you paranoids out there, yes, we were talking specifically about you so deal with it)...

and i;m sitting there playing trivia and the phone is rining and text messages are coming and people are talking and all of a sudden i've got what appears to be a hellava good social life on the hugging smiling friendly side and dang if that isn't one of the final pieces of the puzzle of becoming a human, so my work here is almost done...

of course there is that little bit about falling in love and being all sorts of helplessly devoted like a leaf in the wind or two sparrows in a hurricane, but we can't very well go do that without a viable partner and so far, no viable partner has arrived on the scene (so many criteria to be viable, but of course, there's always the crazy wild intimate passion partner for sensual frolics and nights naked under the stars letting all inhibitions run wild and free, but such a partner isn't within sight just yet either)... so for now the socializing is the wonderful time-passing experience that we can all enjoy in our own way... for some it may even be enough...

last night was trivia at the old place and the old group did not show up... amazing how people can be herded and manipulated... and funny how one insect can damage so much grain... we still had fun (since i know a bunch of people there it was easy to find another group) and i even got some BBQ sauce in my hair (frisky bunch)...

monday i actually tried to rest, and i did stay home, but still bounced around (and yet, still did not get laundry done, a task that is way overdue) and did not get more than five or six hours sleep... that is a lot for these days though... this is the way it was for most of this life until the world imploded in toronto a bit more than a decade ago... then came homelessness, poverty, depression, ambivalence, apathy, and then, while rebuilding acceptance of the sedentary suicidal vegetative lifestyle of the people i chose to make home sharing family this decade... and lately the lifestyle is changing, though i am hardly doing meaningful exercise on a daily basis and still eating way more caloriest than the body needs each day, i am socializing a whole lot more... and sleeping a whole lot less...

and having much fun... tomorrow is softball so i shall try to get four hours sleep... i hope life is good for you out there and i want to know, so tell me all about it...