relevancy is relative

wow, freaking wow, freaking wow, freaking freaking wow, how time passes not unnoticed but unrecorded as if it is unnoticed but not really cuz i notice even as it slips by unnoticed… and everywhere goes the same or different only similar and still somewhat unique (no really, you would barely believe your own eyes if you found the time to see for yourself, read, even, cuz time keeps on slipping slipping slipping and even as it does that, i do this, even when i hardly notice myself…

fact is, all babbling aside, at least a dozen of those blog diary journal things have been updated this week, some a few times, at least one more than every day… yes, the addition to sharing words on the net is in full bloom even as i forget where i uploaded stuff moments after, or even before the words are fully uploaded… freaking wow, right, whatever…

the excuse (and reason, aussi) for not being here as often as all the other places is lack of time to adequately stir up the babbler sufficiently to roll down the hill (or is this up?) toward a babbling entry that is what this place is for (wherever this is) and most all of the other places are briefer… and right here and now in the midst of this life sandwhich, the music slows down with bon jovi tonight and the heart still racing the clock might explode any moment now, but the minds is floating in space, cyber, hyper, sub, somewhere out there in a timeless stillness, a vortex of balance that is invisible to the naked eye and most human brains cuz of the wavelength or energy field level or something like that…

lonely, yeah, still, i wouldn’t want to be anywhere else for this is home and no matter where i’ve been. everywhere else is just visiting… may your world feel as comfortable… sometimes numb and yet, when turned on, the most wonderful feeling ever… except, of course, for the Buddha belly… i still do not think the fat one was truly honest with his body, but then, one can be at peace and content and in bliss without being completely in touch with self (ignorance says so, after all, but not just that way if you know what i mean… apparently the fat one did)…

and so i might have gone out and bought a $600 laptop (or put $600 toward a laptop and since i’ve been eyeing those new little $300 eee machines, that would have been easy) but instead, i made some holiday wishes come true and while i sit here lonely waiting for this old monster gaming laptop to die again, it still feels good to give…

one of these days i will double the pleasure by giving to myself while i am sharing with someone else… it’s the someone else part that is still missing from that pleasure, so i do the best i can in the meantime (not that it’s mean time, the in-between time, not average either, just playing with the words, after all, i mean, not mean, but here, not mean, but there, not mean, but everywhere)…

so what’s new with you? :)