babbling through computer concerns (part two)

well, about 200,000 files have been scanned and the full scan continues even as i took a break to release body wastes and kaspersky and says it will continue for another five hours or more which is pretty ridiculous and perhaps suggests that i should find my external drives and copy all the document and image and personal files and re-image the hard drive (with windows 7 while i am at it for windows vista is a large part of the slow deterioration of this laptop) but i am sitting here typing at the moment because i do not want to interfere with the scan any more than typing into this one file interferes with the scan so maybe 12 monkeys and helix will distract me from the impatience creeping up on me as the scan drags on forever or so it seems in the relativity of time...

dinner earlier was a near pureed spread made of salmon, clams, chicken, onions, spices, fat free thousand island dressing, mayonaisse, and fat free cheddar cheese... dessert was nuts and chocolate milk made with 50% crushed ice, stevia, cocoa, and some chocolate syrup (forgot the vanilla)... probably more calories than i burned today because i didn't exercise but not more than 1500 calories and likelt closer to 1200 calories but i still feel bloated so the answer, my friends, is not blowing in the wind or even blowing into the wind, but rather exercising more, burning more calories than consumed... that way the weight loss desired will continue and the body will be faster, healthier, and easier to manage (and better at softball and other sports, though exercise to prevent muscle loss is essential to that healthy and effective weight loss)... yes, that is the path we are on while we wait for the full scan to be completed...

the good news is that the computer has remained on during these scans and this babbling and the potty break and the wandering through the mind and rhymes and wonder years and memories and fantasies and logic and reason and reality of sadness and hopes and dreams and i keep saving this file every line and more often just in case so this process is recorded for posterity in case this is the last time i use this computer and hopefully i will find the external drive and save these words and all the others and images and other files before the end because ever few saves the notepad says (not responding) hopefully because of the full scan and not because the computer is dying or worst of all, about to bite the big one for the last time... where is that hard drive anyway?...

alas, so many boxes piled up in the space and the drive and many other things i'd like to find (like the wrist brace i would have liked to have playing softball tonight because my wrist is sore for some reason currently believed to be because i slept on it but it could be some disease or affect {effect} of the aging process or something else entirely but the point is i'd like to have a week or two to searched through all the boxes for the things i'd like to find and somehow find a way to organize everything on shelves or in drawers so everything is easy to find so i case toss out stuff i don't want to keep and actually use and enjoy stuff i do want to keep like the cds and lots of other stuff... and there's a whole lot of laundry to do as well... and clean laundry to fold and put away somehow, somewhere... and cleaning to do... and more...

notepad slows even more as we approach 300,000 files scanned as i wonder how many files are the right amount of files for a laptop and i know it's relative and dependant on the software installed but i wonder what is the optimal balance between drive space and type of software and efficiency and safety as kaspersky moves file after file to the group "trusted" as if it knows what i n(and this computer) should trust... lots of installers and browser stuff... and it says four hours remaining for the full scan... and the mind continues to find distraction in the 12 monkeys apocalyptic nightmare that makes way too much sense given the nhilistic suicidal path humanity is on under the guise of religion and politics that are just cover stories attempting to rationalize greed and domination that is currently accepted by the majority as the way of the world because, as is so often said, it has always been this way (but has it really?)...

this entry will pause now, arbitrarily and suddenly and somewhat randomly...

narf :)