maybe early
that is, I am home from work and it may still be early... I don't think I quite worked twelve hours today... and in the past hour I came very close to starting to upload the dozens of entries destined for a place behind the candoor when the gremlins said NO!... heck, pardon my frog, but they said FUCK NO!... yes hell, they did just say that... and it hurts, like losing a best friend...
I mean, in more coherent terms, that I was finishing the introductory entry to the dozens of entries and the WinWord program crashed and did not recover the words (which is like a knife in the heart of the mood and I'm not into that sort of kinky pain so turned on I am not and I needed a turn off like I needed another hole in my head)...
so I am pondering whether to throw in the towel for yet another week and turn on the boob toob and mentally masturbate until I am brain-numb and fall asleep watching the inside of my eyelids... or... just crawl into bed and feel sorry for myself (I haven't done that in ages cuz it sucks to be there)... or... go over to myspace and carefully search for more friends and people who turn me on with a smile or words or something and send out more ADD requests (cuz I am just so ADD, after all)... or... go back to whatever is left of the 500K file that contains dozens of mostly finished entrie and see about getting the mood to actually upload all those entries again...
it was so exciting for a few moments there...
so I had a bad day... so far... I've only been awake fourteen hours or so, so maybe I'll be back later with good news... there's always hope, after all (I hope)... yes, it is built in redundancy... I always hope (I hope) is one of my core mantras... cuz I hope I always hope so there is always hope that there will always be hope because I hope there is and there always will be because I hope there is and I always will because I hope I do so there is always hope that there will always be hope because I keep hoping there will be...
imagine me on a good day...
ack!
I mean, in more coherent terms, that I was finishing the introductory entry to the dozens of entries and the WinWord program crashed and did not recover the words (which is like a knife in the heart of the mood and I'm not into that sort of kinky pain so turned on I am not and I needed a turn off like I needed another hole in my head)...
so I am pondering whether to throw in the towel for yet another week and turn on the boob toob and mentally masturbate until I am brain-numb and fall asleep watching the inside of my eyelids... or... just crawl into bed and feel sorry for myself (I haven't done that in ages cuz it sucks to be there)... or... go over to myspace and carefully search for more friends and people who turn me on with a smile or words or something and send out more ADD requests (cuz I am just so ADD, after all)... or... go back to whatever is left of the 500K file that contains dozens of mostly finished entrie and see about getting the mood to actually upload all those entries again...
it was so exciting for a few moments there...
so I had a bad day... so far... I've only been awake fourteen hours or so, so maybe I'll be back later with good news... there's always hope, after all (I hope)... yes, it is built in redundancy... I always hope (I hope) is one of my core mantras... cuz I hope I always hope so there is always hope that there will always be hope because I hope there is and there always will be because I hope there is and I always will because I hope I do so there is always hope that there will always be hope because I keep hoping there will be...
imagine me on a good day...
ack!
posted by candoor at 10:53 AM
1 Comments:
Can I offer a hug, a smile, and more *hope*? Or maybe chocolate is needed. I do admit to feeling the moment of excitement, however momentary, upon hearing of a possible upload....and then the dashing with that feeling all of us know only too well when technology fails us in the simplest of ways. I *hope* you won't give up for another week. There are those of us faithfully waiting to be enlightened by the brilliant melody that flows from your fingertips. You are a joy, a great big yay, and one of the most sincere and honest people I have ever encountered online. Know that you do have friends out here in this online world, however strange that word may seem to use in such a context. But the sun does rise again every morning with the possibility of "more".....and my hope and heart is for more of the good for you....everything good that you deserve to have come your way. (((((Hugs)))))
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