stiffled when I am not dancing

wanting someone to come along and stimulate me in a way that feels like dancing is not going to make it happen and even wanting it may be a waste of energy as long as I am just sitting here wanting and occasionally dancing and then wanting when I stop but not wanting when I am dancing and perhaps nobody ever could but it's sad to think nobody cares to try and then I wonder who knows cuz you're the only ones here and luckily I can just go back to dancing before the pondering gets too deep...

college football on the TV... lunch at the Chinese buffet (giving into foolish influences on my wallet from outside of my head)... and as The Spoons play on Austin City Limits I wonder why I am not in Austin and if I was would I be dancing any differently or finding someone who might come along to stimulate me in a way that feels like dancing... maybe I should visit reruns of Eddie Murphy on SNL...

fascinating Saturday, no doubt...

hope yours was too :)