but what i really want to know is...

awww, sweet as a kiss, no doubt (your dancing)... but it's time to return to the words (and you can forever wonder if and how {if I did} switch these three entries that may actually have been uploaded at once around, but the whole space time continuum thing is not what these entries were meant to be about {perhaps}, so let's just move along with the return to the words though and whatever the words were saying)...

but first (what?... aren't I listening to myself?... dang incorrigible kid), what with me compounding interest in time and space today, I should point out that I was going to upload this entry and the previous (or next, if you're scrolling downward) entry as one entry (and that one entry as one of two entries) this morning from work (because I ran out of time at home to upload) and after getting to work and adding a few lines, I realized I forgot the password to this blog so I couldn't upload these entries as I intended and this entry grew after I got home into two entries, so what was the second entry from this morning (which would have been Thursday's entry in blog time) is not Friday's entry, I think, and first half of this entry is now Wednesday's entry and this is becoming Thursday's entry and if that matters at all, well, now it's recorded here for as long as this presentation of words may last...

in any case, while that might have diminished the power of the message of the original entry this might have been had I not interjected all this rambling time orientation (or disorientation, depending on your perspective cuz as we all know, perspective is everything and there are at least a gazillion of them right here and now for each of us even if we only see one or a few, if we are wise, {some geniuses are said to see more, but what would we know about that} and lucky), but be that as it may be or not be), we will get on with what was to be the beginning of this entry way back hen this entry was part of the previous entry this morning...

cuz what I really want to know is...

do you see sadness when you are sad?
do you see gladness when you are glad?
do you know how much your feelings influence your perceptions?
on closer introspections…

it could be what you see is not what I thought I put there
which could be funny if we trust each other to meant no harm
so let’s be friends and search for deeper understandings
ask questions and listen to what we are really saying
isn’t that what we want from each other in the end?
isn’t that the very definition of a friend?

I hope that doesn’t cause us to hold back out of fear
that we might misunderstand and say the wrong thing
because that would defeat the purpose and suggest
that we really aren’t trusting each other very much

so I’ll say thank you now for trusting me to mean no harm
and for sharing what you think and asking for more
and I’ll trust you to mean no harm in your queries
and appreciate your reactions even more than before
cuz isn’t that what we want from each other in the end?
isn’t that the very definition of a friend?

thanks for being my friend :)

and perhaps I might have concluded there, all mushy and vulnerable and open for emotional response (but would I have received none, I might have been sad, so I avoid the potential for sadness by continuing now, given the opportunity that forgetting my password this morning presents, and ponder if that diminishes the feeling for me or you or us or even them)...

this paragraph was the last paragraph of the entry after the next entry (or the entry prior to the previous entry, if you follow the time line, but that changed suddenly when I decided to continue this entry as the second half of the entry before this by uploading it before the next entry so it reads below it and therein appears to continue even if the dates suggest it came first... yeah?), but forgetting changed that plan so now it is here...

what I was saying (that may or may not be physically accurate or even theoretically possible anymore, but when has that ever stopped me) was this entry will skip immediately into the archive and slide down the page because the next entry is coming out even as I type these last few lines of this entry and later tonight, even that entry will slide down the page because I will be back to RealTime™ later, but for now, this is what’s been on my mind while I’ve been away this week and I know (there's always hope) at least a few of you want to know (thanks :)