the party of the part part

part three, which is really part two, but was written third, so being part three came naturally if we consider time linear and label the parts chronologically, but in essence and, in fact, in order of entries uploaded tonight, this will be part two, even if we call it part three...

I am listening to music at myspace because the myspace music player is working for me for a change... it's moody, this old computer... sometimes it lets the music play and sometimes the memory runs out and everything moves in slow motion and audio and video come to a sudden, but quite silent halt...

I miss music so much, it hurts... in fact, I miss music more than I miss sex... I mean, I can have sex with myself, great sex, in fact, but I am in no position (no equipment, no space, no ka) to make music by myself... no wonder I am not falling in love more often (or more seriously than a child's fantasy in Brooklyn, or maybe Long Island or Orange County or Venice... anywhere but here (who sang that, anywhere buy here it was a song or album or both...

there's a stupid self-righteous voice inside wanting to scream in outrage, "what the fuck happened to my mojo?"... of course using the Austin powers word does put the giggles in the mix and kind of deflates the outrage and exposes the stupidity behind the self-righteous ire (fake, no doubt)...

so being this is the third day of the three missing dates, it reflects the current moment most currently even though it is the second part of the three-part entry even though it was written third, part...

I quite suddenly went out and ran four laps in 54:43.69 with lap times of 11:47.93, 13:21.21, 16:15.51, and 13:20.03, respectively... actually not bad for laying off since 8/23... yeah, almost an entire month according to my trusty chronometer (stopwatch to the old folk at home)... I did 54:08.40 for the four laps then with a best lap of 12:29.63 and an average 13:32.10 for the four laps... my previous best recorded lap time was 11:47.16 and second best was 11:47.93, but that was just for two laps... I've only been recording thrice, or three times, or parts, if we must... so maintaining conditioning in spite of the pathetic effort of the past month and the resulting flabbiness and lethargy and probable increase in weight is a pleasant surprise, but nothing to write home about...

luckily, I am not writing home...

and on that note I shall present these three entries to you as if the first two were there all along (which would be this one and the one before) and if I didn't mention it here, you might not ever have known if you didn't come by and notice each of the last three days, so disregard this paragraph if you've been absent and feel duly guilty for your non-transgressing of trespass...

move along now to part three, or one, actually, but who's counting anyway...