your turn

wonderful way with words
they say
who says?
you say?
i say
no way!
way!

wonderful way with words
again
repeat?
discreet
defeat?
replete

what say you with your words
right now
and how?
you vow
allow?
now!

utterly meaningless or not
say what?
a lot
forgot?
why not?
not!

and last night, i couldn't get to sleep at all, almost, as usual, mostly… but then again i could have fallen out if i really wanted to so the levels of desire were in conflict again and i said good night to the world and the moon way later than this body might have wanted but the mind continues long after the body seeks rest… that may not be my best, but it is who i am right now…

so i slept three hours or so, like the night before and the night before that and so on and farther back and then today i woke early to meet a meetup that was to take a train to Ybor City (sounds like something like a science fiction tale, if you recall, rico, total-ly) and a group of twenty one semi-strangers would-be friends each took a part of the story that someone wrote for us and read the play aloud each learning more about the whole story as the plot thickened with each paragraph and the enjoyment spread through us like a cast on opening night and then we paused for dinner that was more like a lunch but it was still very delicious at the Columbia Restaurant and then we took the trolly back to the train station where we boarded the train and continued our play-acting until the conclusion when we were all amused and then eleven hours later we were standing in a circle saying how much we enjoyed it and then friendly farewells and then me and the writer wandered over to a meetup that was in a wine-tasting and we met some new strangers and some semi-stranger would-be friends and one of them said something that was quite entertaining and somewhat awakening with blessed honesty that lead me to start thinking and you know when that happens everybody better watch out cuz the depths could be drowning unless you are a swimmer living in the here and now and so i asked some questions of myself and started answering and that lead me to running more than two miles tonight in just under thirty minutes (actually twenty-eight) and as i sit here dripping i relate the day to you and record it here for me so i can remember and reflect on it tomorrow or some other time, perhaps, and if only posterity will know… then that's reason enough to let words flow…

so i say

it does not matter what we are doing when we are sharing life honestly
magic emotion is the feeling of being real completely
when you dare to reach out
that's what life is about

(pause for subtle shift to slow seriousness)
(and a touch of intensity)





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hello
who are you
let me care about you
and if you care about me
even better

hello
will you tell me
what really matters to you
and if you want to know me
even better

but just for a moment
try being yourself
tell me what is real
in your heart and mind
what do you want right now
without affectations
no standing ovations
just allow
me to care about you
i am listening
let me learn
who you are
your turn