retrospective reflections (and other puzzling ponderings)

so i add the entry cuz these thoughts are rolling around my head and there's this date that has no entry cuz i was too busy in RealTime™ to write an entry this weekend and it's only 3am and work is at least five hours away and all these words are bubbling through the brain (as usual) and nobody is here to share or distract me from thinking and playing with words, so i add this entry cuz...

feel free to play the song that never ends now...

and i wonder who is out there, i mean, not you guys who comment, but others who do not comment... i especially wonder at this moment if anyone local is out there, like was i sitting and talking and having fun with anyone this weekend or the past few weeks who reads this (or any of my) babblings?... i know my calendar gets checked now and then or whatever by locals, but has anyone local found my blogs or pages of rhymes or any part of my web world?...

i wonder if it would be as cool as i think it would be if the local physical reality met my semi-imaginary world of words...

or were those famous last words...

so we were discussing the online and offline worlds this weekend and it is interesting how some feel the twain just does not meet, how some feel one or the other is taken too seriously (though usually it's the view that words online get taken too seriously that gets the most agreement), and how people are too dependant on this, that, or the other thing...

and so when i talk to people offline about how much fun it is to play and communicate online, i am often told that i take the online world too seriously... and this is usually by people who spend more time online and less time socializing offline than i do... weird, to me, at least, but everybody has a perspective...

i rarely meet someone who accepts things as i do or thinks about things as i do... maybe i just never learned how to be as invested in anything as others... tthe irony is that when i take something seriously, i am usually told i take it too seriously and when most of the time i am not taking anything nearly as seriously as anyone around me, so few take me seriously... i guess i just don't play the game most everyone plays (and most do not see it all as a game either)...

so because i seldom sleep, i spent more time online and offline than anyone i know... and all these words, who reads tham... you dear friends who've been with me for years, maybe a few newer friends from far far away, but locals - does this opportunity to know me pass without nod (or a wink, for that matter)?... sees a shame, since getting to know people can take so much time in the few hours a week that offline social life allows in this unsocial work dominated culture...

sometimes it seems so sad...

i also wonder what about me might not be knowable by reading everything i've put online... what aspects of my personality are missing... what questions would someone who truly wants to know me completely (believing in the dream that knowing someone completely is possible) ask?... any ideas?... and then another question peaks around the corner... what could i put online to inspire people to want to know me better?... and still another question enters the game, what could i do with my online time to make me more attractive to people offline, not just to the females (ah, ever seeking the one even when i am not consciously doing it), but to potential true friends...

everybody has an opinion, even if they don't want to find it or share it, so what's yours?...

thanks for reading, and if you respond, thanks for responding, and if you answer questions, thanks for answering questions, and if you help me get some of what i want, thanks for the best help a friend can give...

and enjoy it, cu that's what we're here for, ya know? :)