seems like old times
so…. there are dozens of posts (hundreds, actually) in pieces and snippets and scattered pages left over from planet candora and behind the candoor and even before (the beginning?) and the pile is starting here (always seems to happen when another new world forming from the ether {or whatever we call the nothingness that somehow forms into something} or something like that) as thousands of words gush out behind the scenes (or curtain, for that matter) while just a few find their way into the upload due to time constraints, so we might expect a sudden flurry of entries (like there used to be) someday, but for now, this is today…
what to do, what to do… stay awake all night writing in spite of needing to be alert and clear tomorrow to finish reports and chair a vital monthly meeting and then with plans to race over to Universal studios and join friends in the parks and then for dinner and then back to work the next day and out to play with friends and then back to work the next day and then out to play softball and repeat that the following day and then more work and a party at night and then… but when to conclude the apartment search and decision and oh yeah, move?... and the body says sleep, please!...
but i do appreciate you and want you to know that i do (appreciate you)...
i am living on the edge again, or at least darn close to it… because my mind craves the stimulation and the heart-mind craves the emotional roller coaster and the life is not getting any longer (or is that shorter… well, time is ticking ticking ticking, into the future)…
yeah, that's it, at least for this upload…
nite nite (i think :)
what to do, what to do… stay awake all night writing in spite of needing to be alert and clear tomorrow to finish reports and chair a vital monthly meeting and then with plans to race over to Universal studios and join friends in the parks and then for dinner and then back to work the next day and out to play with friends and then back to work the next day and then out to play softball and repeat that the following day and then more work and a party at night and then… but when to conclude the apartment search and decision and oh yeah, move?... and the body says sleep, please!...
but i do appreciate you and want you to know that i do (appreciate you)...
i am living on the edge again, or at least darn close to it… because my mind craves the stimulation and the heart-mind craves the emotional roller coaster and the life is not getting any longer (or is that shorter… well, time is ticking ticking ticking, into the future)…
yeah, that's it, at least for this upload…
nite nite (i think :)
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posted by candoor at 12:43 AM
10 Comments:
have ya moved to Toronto yet?
lol, another anonymous?...
perhaps you are from one of the new places i have explored in the last few days... ning and various ning connected places (each seem to ask for a separate registration and stuff) and i returned to adult friendfinder to see what mischief can turn up from that odd and typically capitalistic contradictorical (as opposed to rhetorical, i suppose) site... do people always have to lie to make money?... wait, that's the rhetorical... anyway, i wonder if any of the horny young co-eds will find me here :)
as for moving to Toronto, not even close, i'm banned from canada, remember?...
i've been apartment hunting...
thanks for asking, whomever zee may be :)
when commenting from iphone every less click count:z thus anony in lieu of signing in... i've been darting family around town like crazy, including a 12 year old, a 2.5 year old, a 3.5 year old, a 6.5 year old, a handfool if i evah saw 1...
Aww ... and there I was thinking that I'd started an anonymous trend!
How's the apt hunting going? (yup - that's a nudge if you need one)
what?... an anonymous trend?... couldn't happen, no way, no how...
i understand and appreciate your iphone comments... though i don't know if i will get myself an iphone cuz i really don't think i need it cuz i don't use most of the features on my current phone so i probably wouldn't use even more features...
i've been babbling on in my head (and in other places too... soon,m some of that babbling may even fill in some of the gaps here, just cuz that's kinda what happens during a transition if you recall the transition from btc to here...
though the newest latest most recent blog-start is probably not going to continue (and an adult friend site, no less), probably going the way of blog #16, which was at the onion, cuz sites that charge and are specialized for specific audiences are not usually where i remain for long...
wow, that's like a twenty four year old, almost...
i should sign a lease tomorrow, probably spending a fortune more than i have to because i am feeling like spoiling myself and will pay for it for a year... of course I'll invite all the beautiful people over and find the one and live happily ever after, so it's worth it...
meanwhile, i just uploaded my first video to youtube... i think... i am currently waiting for it to appear...
thank you for coming by and leaving words... it makes me feel like i am less alone in the world...
my head hurts...
but otherwise, everything is beautiful in it's own way... and now, i am going to drink some of the two steak and shake shakes precious is bringing home for me...
take care of yous...
nite nite
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the genius of iPhone is the "pinch" and expand or shrink feature which makes all web browsing a breeze. the other "smart"phones are stupid and can't do it which is why you don't do it.
add gps to that and you won't leave home without it... add oakley goggles to project the screen on and wifi keyboard and you will never buy a computer/laptop again.
toys i would probably play with, maybe, if i chose to spend the bucks, bu i am adding monthly bills left and right these days (wireless card and service, cable, water/sewer, trash pick up, stuff not included in rent) to the already existing monthly bills (electric, phones, storage, gas, tolls, and stuff i am leaving out) and recreation (which will be cut severely due to cost consciousness) and then there's the rent itself, a bill i've avoided for some time cuz i covered roommate bills so suddenly i may be looking at $1000 more outgoing monthly than in the previous months...
that could put a crimp in the carefree social spending i've been doing for the past almost year...
so another %50 a month or so for internet and gps and stuff on the phone would not be a wise move at this point, at least not until i settle into these new bills for a few months and see if i have to tap into savings...
meanwhile, there is a very good possibility that i will buy a new laptop in the next week or so, crazy little fool i am...
and then there's the fact that i might want to put a few pieces of furniture in the new place since i am taking only the big green chair and maybe one other chair and possibly the mattress and bed, though i really don't want to...
i'll look at the iphone when i go for a new phone, hopefully that won't be for a a couple or few months...
meanwhile, i am falling behind the real time in real time again...
whatever happened to the imperative blog or die that used to seem to be my motto?...
remember blogathon?...
anyway, thank you for the conversation...
and i hope none of you feel ignored, i am pondering, even if i am not communicating or even babbling in random phrases and entries that are secret messages posing as irreverent entries that have little or no apparent theme or direction because they are full of asides and tangential distractions that disguise the true intent until it is explained in an outrageously run-on sentence that few follow and even fewer understand so the secret is safe cuz it is lost in the midst of confusion and lost interest as the fun of the literary play consumes whatever the point was in the first place...
i still love you, regardless of how many words come between the reminder that i still love you...
thanks for being here too :)
...and so??? For your loyal fan-base waiting in suspense, is the lease signed?
By the way, have you ever heard of a sliding glass shower door that spontaneously explodes and sounds like a bomb went off in an unattended bathroom in an apartment for no apparent reason and sends gazillions of tiny shards of glass all over said bathroom? Up until this happened this afternoon, I hadn't heard of it happening either. Might be a good question to ask of your apartment complex?
oh yeah, i signed the lease on the 27th and took the keys on the 29th and moving in started and continues the rest of this weekend and i hope i mentioned that at the impromptu daily life blog i inadvertently started at e-the-real dot blogspot when i wasn't looking cuz it's probably kind of important information if you care about me and i so love you for doing that so well from way over there in your exploding glass door apartment...
tell me more, are the ghostbusters investigating?... hope no one was hurt...
more catch-up as soon as time and internet connectivity permits...
hug yourself for me today :)
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