what it is all about, at least mostly

yeah, i know i can be spontaneously ridiculous in a seriously dangerous hedonistic kind of way and what i mean by that is that i can, in momentary spurs (or spur of the moments) decide to reverse all collective good sense and indulge the senses of the body to the max in any number of freewheeling ways that any medical professional would probably say is quite not the ideal adventure for the body (as in quite unhealthy, even) and yet, the pleasures of the flesh of the senses of the adrenaline and chemical rushes are so wonderful that given the clarity of choice between a hundred years of life abstaining from most, if not all physical pleasures or fifty years of life enjoying the physical experiences to the max, i shall live fast and die young, relatively counting…

so in spite of fighting off a nasty cold/flu bug that has most people at work groaning and taking time off and having a compounding abdominal pain that could be kidneys ot intestinal or whatever, i decide to sleep less so the mind can enjoy playing spades against the computer last night knowing i had a long day at work and then softball right after work and the body really would benefit from rest and healthy eating and i play drink some raspberry ices tea after work to wake up (and attempt to clear my sinuses and congestion) and played really well at softball and if that wasn’t enough body-testing, i indulged in fast food frenzy for the first time in weeks on the way home and here it is, home three hours later than i could have been and stuffed with stuffed pizza and stuffed tacos and stuffed stuff and don’t forget the dew, mountain, that is, and wired ridiculously hen i really should be sleeping, ought to be even…

loving every minute of it, jerry…

in the real time of life, the local basketball team blew their chance and lost to the underdogs in the first round of the nba basketball playoffs, which only goes to show you enjoy sports more by playing than by watching, or at least i do, and you enjoy watching a whole lot more when you have many favorites rather than stay locked into a home town choices that you really didn’t make, but kind of inherit by default by living in the place… disappointing, yes, cuz they were expected to win and had to play very poorly to lose, but hey, the team that wants it more usually wins and the local team obviously did not want it more…

but that’s the world out there and i am enjoying the world inside now that i am home from the fun of playing softball and eating taste bud pleasure foods and that, in case you did not notice, bring me (us if you are with me) here to babble a bit about the real time life lived in, well, real time right here and now, relatively writing (and that is the point of the story of the life as told loosely in this blog cuz right here and now is whenever you might be here reading this which can almost never be the right here and now i experience as i am writing this so the we is a fiction we create if we want to and for those who do, yay, cuz that is what it (life, the universe, and everything, at least) is all about (hokey pokey shmokey)…

buzzing now, cuz i cut out caffeine for the past week or so or longer, i think, and dancing in the moonlight in my mind as the hopes and dreams of a gazillion beings across the universe coalesce in the collective consciousness of the consciously aware (which is relative to the level of consciousness one actualizes within and in the physical, which is often two different things as few transcend the connection but those who do know more than most others know, for what that is worth to you {not discounting celstine prophesy fans or religious zealots or sci-fi fans, for that matter, each choosing a different way to construct a mental reality that provides explanations for the aspects of existence that few come close to experiencing, understanding, knowing, actualizing, or doo dah daying, for that matter}, if it is worth anything, that is), which may or may not be you as you journey through your experience of this physical existence, cha cha cha…

what meaning you find in the words in this blog is worth the value that you choose to place on it and while i may hope you choose the value colloquially known as priceless in the most sincere sense (not that ego doesn’t want to be the center of the universe in every way in every mind of every being in every universe, but that’s beside the point cha know), it is, in the end (and also in the beginning and right now even, and the middle too), almost totally completely and virtually all up to you and you might, as most do, choose not to let me in on your decision which is quite alright if you are not into sharing, but being me i shall continue sharing in the hope the end of the universe does not come before you find out that sharing is the point of it all…

yes alfie, that’s what it’s all about, your way, my way, our way, the way is sharing and caring and feeling and experiencing the physical existence as much as possible for as long as it lasts and then, whatever comes will come and the point will be enjoying that as much as possible… and even within the truth within these words as true as it is, the experience can be heightened still further by optimizing the physical senses by optimizing the physical body that experiences the physical existence if you know what i mean and that requires (even if i am wrong, which i am not, at least not in this universe, but anything is possible, probably, nyuk nyuk) maximizing the physical body which is one of the aspects of this life that i am not optimizing at this time (and it’s been years at that) which shows in my stamina and that is not just the aging process though that process is playing more of a factor with each passing year, i can still focus and concentrate and discipline my choices and actions much more to optimize the physical body much better which would increase the sensory and conscious awareness and presence in the physical experience of the physical existence la la la…

so what are you doing in your experience of life to choose your experience of life, i wonder… are you accepting the lazy hedonistic pleasures like me or are you optimizing every moment of the physical experience by optimizing the physical body that contains your consciousness?... and the thought slides over the top just now containing the construct pondering how it appears that so many who work very diligently to optimize the physical body do not actually connect with the conscious awareness such physical optimization can bring or provide and that is likely mostly due to conditioning over the years from early youth to fear conscious awareness and accept delusional mental subservience and emotional abstinence and physical slavery (or vice verse, adjectively speaking) so all they experience is the optimization of the superficial physical existence without much of a clue about what they could actualize if they free their mind (cuz their ass would follow)…

alas, that is a sad thought for those who know, but for the vast majority who remain unaware, ignorance remains bliss as long as bliss is defined by ignorance (sneaky slip of the psychological mickey there, and i don’t mean mouse or rooney, if you know what i mean)… but before we get to superimposing judgments on the conceptual propositions laid before you in these words, please consider that knowing is far from the superior position in the grand scheme of things for knowing is not actualizing as exemplified by the old adage about those who can do and those who can’t (mostly because they are afraid to) teach so any offense you create in your mind (and did you see that?) can do you no good in your mind and even less good outside of your mind, but you are free to choose your perspective as you wish…

yeah, as you wish…

and on that note i shall provide these words to you in this moment by pressing the button that sends these words on to the internet for however long this site remains (accepting so many sites have been deleted by servers along the way and who is to say google will not do the same one day) for you and posterity, whomever or whichever comes first or in any order cuz it is the choice you make that determines what it is, and (all together now) that is what it is all about…

love it or you are wasting your time :)