not enough time?

that is such a weird thought which is why it becomes a question (referring to the title, in case you are already a little lost... if you are not already a little lost, no worries, it happens here most of the time... if you don't want to be a little lost, you may have to actually ask questions for directions as to the meaning and meanderings of thought streams that flow in this blog, but be that as it may be or not to be, welcome back my friends {and potential friends} to the show that never ends {referring to the mostly cosmic trail of babbling as someday my own personal recording of my tap into it will likely end as immortality is not highest on my list of wished, but that's beside the point that is beside the point that was the point before this parenthetic aside became the beside, or something like that} step inside and stay a while, why dontcha {i am listening to the playlist [music] linked at the top of this page and i hope you can listen too maybe this will work if the other does not, though it saddens me to see how many of the songs are no longer available for play, which leads me to the sadder reality that so many links in past entries and articles and pages all over the web that had value and still could have value are gone cuz servers shut down or people just don't seem to see the value in themselves or anything, i mean, yes we are temporary, but we don't have to discard nearly as much as we do... maybe it's the limits of memory in the current development of the brain, which reminds me of how much i love neuropsychology and the like, but we may be riding a horse of a diferent flavor now so back out of this multiplex parenthetic aside, aye?} cuz it helps me remember some of my favorite thoughts and dreams and ideals, even, and gives birth to new babbling streams that further distract and enhance {yes, they are not mutually exclusive if you let go and trust the flow, cosmic or not} cuz i love it when you do {listen?... step inside?... stay a while?... get a little lost?... ask for directions?... as i said [wrote, actually] welcome back} the wonders or monotony [depending on your perspective] of the entry you have just entered), cuz i am actually vacationing these days with no specific plans or schedule or time-sensitive responsibilities (except for happiness, who will walk with me now... brb... ok, back with even more on my mind {check diet, cost of moist food and tests for happiness}... happiness is my best friend {and roommate's} dog's blog name, in case you wondered) so why in the world would there be not enough time?... real time?... long ago wondering is still there ya know? (even other older entries (including myspace where sadly the myspace server seems to have erased most of the comments i left that were longer than a few lines... and they wonder why they lost respect from those who wanted to share more than music and superficiality... meanwhile, facebook is heading in that direction and i am happy i never got into blogging there and have we lost our way?... joey, help me out here)... how ya doin?...

what?...

something is missing here... it may appear at some latter time, which will be now, then... it seems even i can get hoodwinked by my parenthetic asides within parenthetic asides (and so on)... i believe i was referring to the title and pondering how is it possible that there is not enough time (if i remembered where they were, i've have linked to my petition to the universe for a 42 hour day... it is really a lot more challenging to search a blog at blogspot than it was at diaryland because there is no single list of all entries like there is at diaryland... guess blogger depends more on the writer never missing an appropriate tag... i often don't even think about tags after babbling (and in other blogs, and swinging through so quickly there is no time for tags)... anyway, i have more time than i've had in a long time as i am not working at the moment... the change had to happen, the dysfunction and piling on of work was simply getting more ridiculous and demanding more of my time with every passing year, so i left and now, am taking my time before looking for another job... the initial panic is wearing off (you can read the whining and insecurity at the daily blog and other offshoots cropping up faster than pimples before a big date) and the relaxation and enjoyment has begun, though more laziness than is healthy so increasing exercise is becoming a necessity (and as the foot is almost ready for light jogging and light softball practice, it is time to step it up, literally... did i mention that some time back in april i ruptured ligaments and chipped the base of my tibia?... yeah, a boot and crutches for two months and just started light brief jogging in the past week or two... drove me batty trying to get around work and home and when the ceo did what he usually does, which is hit people while they are down or weak, i finally decided it was time to stop being loyal to the organization and find another gig that would be a little less abusive, maybe even a healthy place... anyway, with the inactivity and the lack of daily work responsibility, it leaves more time than i've had in more than ten years... just took the last month or so to decompress {aka vege out} and now, i might even babble a bit)...

i have been writing fairly regularly, though beaten down by the rat race, in the (e)thereal (the daily blog that was intended to be a brief daily blog, which is what this was intended to be after behind the candoor became a babble-fest, but then this became a babblefest too, in case you didn't notice... like someone might have time to read years of babbling, like ten years of babbling?... right, not enough time, are we laughing?... someday my princess will come and love to read it all and tell me all about it, until then, there are these delusions and fantasies and the distracting art of babble, you know, the mindless nonsense you've come to love)... and in a week or few i might even regain consciousness and find the brilliance of free-associating mind-blowing babble returning to the fingertips tapping the keys to bring words to the screen...

until then, there is this:

ok, where were we?... ah, i was inspired to come wandering through this blog by a comment to a previous entry and only semi-randomly selected the previous links to provide us with fodder for discussion or samplings of the past for perusal or any reason at all when happiness asked for a walk and then he inspired me to given him some love and added research attention (diet, foods, tests) cuz he dripped some blood at the end of his pee (his history of kidney crystals and stones may be acting up as he approaches his 14th year) and then other things distracted me, as other things do, and i followed some wishing instructions and then ate a banana and drank some grapefruit juice (breakfast in the afternoon) and cleaned the bathroom a bit after using it and what other details would you like? (if you have not been laughing along with me yet, you need a refresher in my odd sense of humor... feel free to ask or read or study, there will be no test unless you want one... anyway, here is the first reaction to the comment that brought me back to start an entry here, just so i can repeat myself a few more times...

so i checked email for the first time in days and i checked the comments folder where notifications of comments left on my blogs are sorted which i check even less often and i found a comment was left a few days ago on my last daily blog and that lead me to play my playlist (music) and i am not sure that link will work for you as i had to log in to the site to listen to my own playlist which makes no sense since i'd like anybody to listen and comment on the playlist but anyway, i wanted to know who commented (as i usually do, attention hound that i can be) and visited her profile and found five blogs so i visited this one first and it lead me to this interesting site which i think could be defined as a meme and i might have seen it in email before but that's all i am supposed to say about it (which really shortened this entry) and then i visited my visitor's other pages in this order (wondering how long those blogs have been there and whether they will be used eventually) and finally found this one and i read it and commented cuz, after all, comments inspire smiles mostly and i am appreciative for the comment left here that inspired my smile so i hope my comment there inspired a smile there too and that is what i did in the past couple of hours...

hope your day is smiling too :)

so that's sort of where we were, except for the tangential parenthetic asides in the first paragraph (which should probably be several paragraphs, but let's not let the parenthetic asides start up again too soon, aye?), or the other paragraphs, some of which (or whom) are still spinning out of control in some alternative universes (and maybe this one too, if you are perceptive enough), and moving forward i am reading this old thing written by a psuedonamed the last psychiatrist which was quoted in my comments once upin a time (oh, how i miss my blog family, let me count the ways 0 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 q 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 awesome (i shall stop suddenly now, kind of like a craig ferguson awkward pause, perhaps, as i will leave out many anyway and it is a perfect time to show off my imperfections and lack of infinite time to find all the links and be sad cuz so many don't work, wah wah, narf... or else i will add additional links to the other coolest people in the world and blog family as i find them as if they were here all along... or something like that), but then, as families often do, they too disappeared in disputes and discontinued dialogues and any amount of alliteration, aligned or not, can return us to those innocent days of yore, speaking of yore, how are yore? (what us that, you've got mail or something?)...

and some i don't know at all... hey... you talking to following me?...

and time time time is running out on daylight and sitting here too many hours is quite physically a pain in the neck, so i shall post this now and perhaps return for more later or perhaps post another at another time for an actual catch-up entry as opposed to a trip through links and memories with clever teasing and intelligent wit, even... i may have to apologize for misplacing my ego and sense of humor after this one... still unpredictable, still here somehow...

may life be spectacular today just for you :)