I'm lost

it's ok, I like being lost sometimes cuz it's fun to wander around aimlessly and it's fun to wander around trying to find myself or where I am or some semblence of where I left off or where I've been or why I am lost and with all thise going on the peanut gallery (in my mind) dances and sings the yay he's lost again" song (written, forgotten, ad infinitum, so yet to be written, if ya falla) while giggling and violating all sorts of rules of decourum...

I thought there was another entry here in which I mention a wonderful phone call, but now I don't remember , but then, a series of entries are in the pip for btc, but I didn't realize I haven't been here since Thursday... time, wherever it went, it went, and so...

Friday was a Friday, learned more at work, and was pondering a fast until Rasputin suggested pizza and just like last Friday, I stuffed my face with pizza... part of that may have been frustration with finding the gym too crowded to be useful again... and also I didn't eat since the day before sometime... and I started feeling a bug trying to move into my throat and head (thanks to one of the people in the office who is sick) and felt more tired than usual by the evening...

so Saturday I made it to the gym twice - just after noon and just before midnight (and yay Saturday, syncronicity is fun) burning 500+ calories in each 30 minutes on the lifecycle (number will be entered in the log soon)... in between, however, I indulged in White Castle, which is as close to animal meat as I've had since startting this new health-life mindset two weeks ago... and fries... the taste buds were in taste bud heaven (or perhaps that'sd hell, my taste buds might be considered devils by that heaven-hell scale and mythology...

it's all relative to me and we shall see whether today starts a third week of health-life focus or one more day of backslide into sheer hedonism)... the meat and fat aids the sense of fog in the brain, by the way, in case you didn't know... and then Saturday is college football day around here from wake up to nod-off in front of the TV and computer listening to the game... also some fantasy sports happened too...

and rambling happened in between distractions (which are mostly fun as I wander aimlessly through a weekend forgetting about any responsibilities the weekdays might have to offer)... links will appear here when the pages referred to in this entry are uploaded...

and I was up until near dawn so I am just waking now (it is Sunday, right?) and so I'll be back after I wake up a bit more... hope your weekend was as much fun as mine (and infinitely more full of the treasures of intimate partnership and romance and partnered passion than mine cuz that is so much of what this life's potential is about)...

aloha J