call it a draw

I made it to the gym... I had to turn around after I was in the parking lot because I forgot the water... I wondered if my subconscious was trying to tell me something... about three quarters of the way to the gym I realized I forgot my towel... sorry, DA (and yes, it was a sorry move to forget the towel even as I pun-ish myself with an irreverent tease as I bonk myself over the head with the truth)... I didn't turn around, but I continued wondering... when I got to the gym, both Lifecycles were taken... first time that's happened in all however many days... only a few times, if that many, was someone on the other Lifecycle... the universe joining my subconscious?...

I got on the treadmill and set it to 5.5mph and ran for a while, slowing down and finishing 10 minutes as around 4.5 mph... leg muscles burning a bit... they left the Lifecycles and I switched over to one... 30 minutes, new speed best, close to new calorie best, feeling crazy for pushing through some noticeable discomfort, but will not let the bugs win as long as I can take steps... then 30 minutes walking on the treadmill, taking steps...

tired... feeling the infection... pissing more blood than yesterday, hopefully not as much as tomorrow... I will probably call a urologist and make an appointment for as many renal tests as possible... hopefully there isn't a stone stuck blocking one of the kidneys, tearing the tubing, and risking kidney failure... obviously one of the kidneys is working fine, since I drank 100 ounces of water during the workout and no symptoms to get too concerned about... but dangit this particular E.Coli is invested in building a home in this body...

so I'm calling it a draw... though part of me says I win cuz I did make it to the gym and kicked a little butt... but part of me says I lose cuz I'm more tired than I should be and feeling more discomfort... I refuse to call it pain until I can't sleep cuz of the feeling... that was Sunday night for a few hours... the only reason I don't sleep more than a couple of hours at a time now is the urge to urinate is strong in this one due to the bugs and the forced fluids... two gallons of water today and still drinking... the clood convinced me to increase the flow...

so this is the most E.Coli entry yet and on that ground alone, it won the day... see, it's a tough call, much like the calls in the NCAA basketball tournament tonight... I watched and enjoyed... no nap... so I will try to sleep now so I might get seven hours tonight... the body whines and pleads for 14 like last night, but I'm going to work tomorrow.... maybe I'll leave early... I doubt it... stubborn, I am... someone recently pointed out my stubbornness to me... I don't remember who or when or why... I'm not sure if it was part of the dreams from last night... they were good dreams... nostalgic and emotional and challenging and fun...

I think I was the only person taking calls at work today... I may have set a record, but I didn't keep track... I may be the only person taking calls tomorrow too... a few of our department is off... I listened to a lot of emotional parents... some cried... a few will probably be admitting their kids tomorrow... some wonder how such emotional work doesn't take it's toll... maybe my kidneys are wondering... but at the end of the day it almost always feels good to help people release their fears and guilt and show them that there is a light at the end of the tunnel...

and that's the day... Me: 5, E.Coli: 4... maybe 4.5 if I wake due to anything other than fluid flow tonight... isn't this fun? :}

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