the secret
hmmmm, being a wanderer (which is proven, of course, by my choosing the be known as Wanderer at Yahoo and several other places online a long long time ago), i am amused by the 11D beings hiding out beyond the 7D through 10D beings, especially since most people are not even aware of the 6D or 5D beings because of fear and even 4D beings are rarely viewed as much more than leaders or wow, isn't he cool? or occasionally Ben Franklins or Thomas Jeffersons, and so recently when i found the terms indigo and starseed and crystal popping up in my email (thanks to meetup) and what about chartreuse and infrared (but you can call me rainbow, sunshine) and alpha beta delta gamma and out beyond omega and all the other labels, i was instantly distracted by my human training and was happy to discover that i was almost fully indoctrinated and memory repression was almost complete so no one would ever believe i was who i was before i was in RealTime™ according to the words written here as gospel cuz that is how it's done…
not even me…
breathtaking revelations, no doubt, but the bottom line is my unshakeable blind faith in agnosticism that keeps me amused at all the other blind faiths out there that propose right wrong and all sorts of other explanations for everything that is only known by faith, but my faith that nothing is completely knowable is stronger than any other faith, or empirical evidence even, so now you know, i am an infinite D being from beyond the black hole, not the one in Calcutta, but a bit farther East, you know, beyond where the map ends…
i think i may have finally reach the point of observer, no longer feeling any compulsion (or even much desire) to help anyone get anywhere (unless, maybe, if they ask real nice)... humans may have to wait for the next evolution of life for the time of enlightenment... maybe the secret is doing nothing...
it is rewarding (and existential) to finally realize that i am becoming successfully human in my mock quest to become human as i have suggested sarcastically all along now and then and especially in the sidebar there that you can so easily overlook… yes, the feigned ignorance is finally starting to take hold and become my natural slovenly unawareness… i even waste stuff regularly, eat un-organic rice, and overcook meat… the only question left now is that now that i am finally human, what do i do now?...
now?...
how about now?...
hey, i think i'm getting the hang of it…
not even me…
breathtaking revelations, no doubt, but the bottom line is my unshakeable blind faith in agnosticism that keeps me amused at all the other blind faiths out there that propose right wrong and all sorts of other explanations for everything that is only known by faith, but my faith that nothing is completely knowable is stronger than any other faith, or empirical evidence even, so now you know, i am an infinite D being from beyond the black hole, not the one in Calcutta, but a bit farther East, you know, beyond where the map ends…
i think i may have finally reach the point of observer, no longer feeling any compulsion (or even much desire) to help anyone get anywhere (unless, maybe, if they ask real nice)... humans may have to wait for the next evolution of life for the time of enlightenment... maybe the secret is doing nothing...
it is rewarding (and existential) to finally realize that i am becoming successfully human in my mock quest to become human as i have suggested sarcastically all along now and then and especially in the sidebar there that you can so easily overlook… yes, the feigned ignorance is finally starting to take hold and become my natural slovenly unawareness… i even waste stuff regularly, eat un-organic rice, and overcook meat… the only question left now is that now that i am finally human, what do i do now?...
now?...
how about now?...
hey, i think i'm getting the hang of it…
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posted by candoor at 10:01 PM
3 Comments:
Hi Ric,
You don't believe this:
"i think i may have finally reach the point of observer, no longer feeling any compulsion (or even much desire) to help anyone get anywhere (unless, maybe, if they ask real nice)"
You are a searcher, an existentialist, and "real." Some people are just before their time. That's you.
I had a similar crisis and commented recently on my own blog. I have more to comment to yours. Look for those soon.
Smiles,
kat
wow...
so here i sit, giggling child, wondering what may come next...
and all i feel (besides wow) is yay! (it feels too good to be a giggling grinning child to go further just yet :)
i'm all a twitter with anticipation (or so vain, but then, isn't every song about me?)...
woah, two carly simon references in one breathe, that hasn't happened in a while, can james taylor be far behind?... shower the people?...
take me seriously?... give up this irreverent life of carefree babble?... that might be a wild ride... but who would take a giggling messiah seriously?...
other gigglers, of course!...
i am amusing myself, with reverence to you, so thank you, cuz i think you just might get some of this and that makes it even more fun :)
i went to your site and left a comment, but it didn't seem to appear, maybe cuz it didn't have cookies on?... or maybe it did appear and just didn't refresh, but a second comment did... the internet can be altogether so confusing sometimes... all the more amusing... anyway, this is what i said in response to your entry:
i sometimes miss lifelong relationships so much, it hurts, but then, they never really end oif you don't want them to, even if some people thing they do... they can pretend to turn off their feelings and forget the meaning of the energy inspired inside, but it's always there... no matter what we call it, it's always there... waiting to be acknowldged, released, rediscovered, and embraced once again...
that's why the best feelings ever are the ones that bring the purity of love and forgiveness and unconditional caring together... and all the walls come down...
pride, fear, ego, selfishness, insecurity, doubt, whatever builds the wall, the best feeling ever is when the wall comes down... even if there was no wall to begin with...
and then i read your entry (cuz until this line, i only scanned a few words and felt what i thought you were saying) and i want to laugh and cry and so i smile contented because the question that comes to mind first is simply...
protect themselves from what?
and i find myself amused, giggling deep down, as i know all too well the horrors of betrayed unconditional trust and still i find the question more natural and real to me as anything...
and i still sing, what have i got to lose, somebody might wave back...
and i keep waving...
and i feel, what have i got to lose, somebody might love back...
and i keep loving...
and i think, what have i got to lose, somebosy might trust back...
and i keep trusting...
cuz there's nothing more rewarding or fun or exciting or meaningful or worth living for...
hurts fade away, love and trust lasts forever :)
lol, so many dimensions
I forgot which one I was in
I think the 5th dimension often gets the better of me, and it becomes hard to lift my head (from the pillow)
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