out doing life (and i want you to know)

not that anyone really knows who i am, what i am about, what makes me tick, what turns me on, what turns me off, where my head is at, what matters most to me, etc etc etc, but at least i am out there with people, interacting with people, hoping people might actually share, hoping someone might actually care to take the time to share the details to get to really know who i am, what i am about, what makes me tick, and so on, and vice versa... the vice versa part is essential to balance the equation and for me, satisfaction comes from a balanced equation... it's all very mathematical...

and heavy with sarcasm of the harmless nature...

just coming in from the Superbowl party at Jackson's place that capped off a busy weekend and i shall attempt to shift gears into a sleep mode as i have a very busy week ahead... if you check the schedule on the right sidebar, you'll see a bit of something about what i am doing and why i am not here much... the good news is i am busy and socializing and not sitting around watching TV griping about the mess i live in... the not so good news is that i am eating too much and not getting enough serious exercise and the little thing i sorta mentioned in the first paragraph...

and i want you to know...

since there really isn't a vast fandom like i pretend there is when i play with ego, my absence is not going to upset the equilibrium of the internet all that much... i do miss you though... yes, the few of you who let me know you are out there (as opposed to the vast "you" of imaginary throngs who silently await my every entry with baited breath... oh, how ego dreams)... i am checking in at your sites, reading your words, and leaving a comment so you know i've been there... i do that to show you that i care about you in case you have any doubts about whether i care about you...

and i want you to know...

cuz even when i am not sharing
in my heart i am still caring
and in my mind, you're always there
even when i am not here

it comforts me to believe this
that even when we're gone
in fact it's the key to my bliss
that caring carries on

i hope you can believe it too
i hope that it is true for you
it's true for me, the love we share
is always there and always here

and even when we are gone
the love carries on

hopefully i will find someone who shares this perspective and wants to share the time and everything it takes to really know (see first paragraph) and until then, i will check in here when i can to let you know what's going on as i am out doing life...

i hope you are enjoying life too and doing what you want to do... if you have time and miss sharing with me, there are videos and other blurbs popping into some of the other branches on the tree of madness that is my super secret way of expressing all the facets of me for anyone who really wants to know me, ya know, thought it may be a bit confusing as some of the babbling is just me playing with my own head and creating silliness and fantasy for my own amusement... but it is all stuff that is passing through my head at one time or another, which matters if you know what i mean...

take care of you and keep sharing as you can because keeping in touch is important and i hope to stay in touch with you... and if you happen to be in Orlando or know anybody who might be interested in knowing me who might be in Orlando, please pass along my number (it's been right over there on the right sidebar too)... cuz there's always hope, i hope, ya know? :)

and i want you to know :)

g'nite :)