bit and pieces again

just for the drama... the dreama... so boredom doesn't happen... so the emo roller coaster continues, even when there's no point or real drama to fuel it...

you are correct, burp...

i am a ridiculous waste of advanced evolutionary knowledge...

and perhaps that should not amuse me, but it does, because so is everybody else...

and we think every moment is so important and we think we are each so important and we think all we do in our lives and times is so important... politics, religion, sports, soap operas, families, exams, the next great bargain at the store... everything is so vitally important... being on time...

and i do spend a lot of literary time lamenting about the foibles and limits of humanity in the past ten years... perhaps i did that in previous decades too... i am still here, still working the work i love, still taking in the strays and giving it all away, so i actually have a whole lot more hope for the species than i appear to have in my laments and cynical babblings...

but didn't you know this too?... i amuse myself with different perspectives in my writings... i write everything to see how it feels... i do what feels right...

and i talk about myself way too much in this past decade... constantly trying to find the perfect words that introduce me so people might come to know me (or want to) and therein attract the one...

all the negativity and cynicism wouldn't fool her, cuz she'd be laughing even harder than i do...

i wish you could have known me before the disillusionment :)


wow, i'm right up there with religion and black magic, i'm honored (and giggling... they'd have so burned me at the stake once upon a time, just for my inappropriate giggling if nothing else :)

thank you...

unconditional love
unconditional trust
honesty without harm

powerful attractions...

if a religion is the word we use to define a set of ideals, than these words are my religion...

unconditional love
unconditional trust
honesty without harm

and more simply i define religion as way or a way... path, style, ideals, habits, personality, patterns of behavior, methods, purpose, reason, meaning... way...

is there a human heart that does not long for such an actualized being?...

so if i actualize my way, then i am what everyone wants and wants to be... for it is the ideal way everyone wants to actualize and share...

if i told you what it takes to reach the highest high
you'd laugh and say nothing's that simple
but you've been told many times before
messiahs have pointed to the door
but no one had the guts to leave the temple

the song is i'm free from tommy by the who... a few lines that are closest to the core of me in this world and words i want said if any words are said for me after this mind stops firing synapses... among many others...

be free :)


i love to play with words, that is the fun of life alone, the pleasure of word play... portraying characters as me, portraying me as characters, a bit of both...

did i ever really take it seriously?...

maybe...

but only in words...

life is a whole 'nother story :)