just a little time

yes, time limited babble, what will we think of next... but then, the torn feeling of whether this is life in realtime (trademark and all) or whether this has been taken over by the babbler who took over behind the candoor (and we see what happened there) continues in the background as i pop in here today with about 40-odd minutes between now and precious coming over and i must squeeze a shower into this time so we're only here for a few cuz i wanted to present you with some thoughts today just cuz i know you can't make it through the day without some thoughts (oh dear, what happens on days i do not get here?... your poor emopty heads, whatever are we to do?... shhhh, eventually all the dates may just get filled in and then, no worries, no problemo, all will be right with the world and your heads) and i might not be back tonight...

such an engradioused sense of importance, aye?...

but that's part of why you come, right?... cuz i'm so very important and the voice inside your head demands (in italics, no less) that you bring your eyes to this spot as often as possible just hoping there might be additional words for you to read and even if there are no additional words, you have so much catching up to do, don't you?... yes, i know, you mean to come here daily to keep up with my shenanigans , but life just seems to happen... that's ok, you know what you are missing...

meanwhile, i wonder sometimes if i do

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yeah, right... so there's never a good doe-eyed stare of whut??? around when you need one, so the 3Os will just have to do... no relation to the 3M company... do they still exist?... i used to do industrial cleaning contracts in the Buffalo / Niagara Falls area and one of the contracts was with 3M... you just never know what sorts of chemicals you might be breathing in when walking into one of those places... or Dow... or Dupont... or... well, that was long ago and my liver and kidney problems have nothing to do with that i am sure... what was that about 3 Os?...

so i munched some cottage cheese and cashews for lunch today and yes, you heard it right (where?... when?... you reading somewhere else?), i did get this body down to the gym yesterday and the day before and the past week has been a much reduced fat, sugar, and quantity week and who knows, this might just be the start of another turn around (a month late, but hey, i had good reasons to indulge in comfort foods last month, right?) cuz after all, the influences of junk food junkies and couch potato-ness are not present in the space and the roaches seem to have moved out for now and by next week i might even start moving in and actually unpacking, so what'dya know, this might be hopeful yet after all...

living without tv or radio or downloadable videos is an interesting detachment from the world (and humanity)... i am enjoying it much more than i am missing the few shows or sporting events i would watch if the tv was connected... and while the music isn't all unpacked, i am listening to more than i have in years... missing the connections though, the soundtrack of a life is like a smile missing half it's teeth these days...

alas, alack, and all that jazz...

so maybe it is time to start writing more again and posting new pages all over the net and slipping little links in here and there and being all sneaky and clever like i was behind the candoor (yeah, fooled everybody, didn't i?)... for the moment, it is time to wash this body and finish folding laundry and then, out with precious and about 50 close personal friends to see religulous, bill maher's new film... with a title like that, it might be s much fun as the harry potter films (doesn't it suck that they delayed the sixth one, but anyway) cuz the title is like one of those spell words...

you really do miss me, i know you do, even if you've been gone for decades and don't even know that i have been lost in babble online for more than one (decade) and writing to you (yes, you, and you too, and every single one of you) for as long as you've been away and you are so gonna be soprry when you find out all you missed (just like me when and if i ever find your life story written where i can read it... imagine, other people being more important to you than i am, for shame... and here i sit all by myself devoted to the dream, purists always have the least guilt, you know?)...

well, if you can hear me over your laughter, then i'm gonna sign off now with a wink and a nod and a smile and rainbows, cuz i miss you and hope you are well...

see ya later (cuz later is always such a good time to see ya :)