seriously serious

it happens sometimes... not often, but from time to time (or on rare occasuions) I am inspired to be seriously serious... if may be rarer than we imagine, actually, and perhaps mostly lost amidst irreverence and clouds of distracting giggles (fluffy clouds that look like bunnies and hearts and funny faces, not dark rain clouds, after all... though the near blinding flash of light shooting through the blackest storm cloud can inspire my giggles too, but then, I am perhaps stranger than most), but there are moments in which I string together several sentences of seriously serious...

I did that most recently... inspired to ponder what to say to someone who experiences the death of a mother lead me to write the following email (yes, I wrote an email... I was shocked too, but back to being seriously serious):

Hello Rick,

a beautiful spirit Cali pointed to Karen who shared the energy of your loss...

I offer a hug and I send you love - and I share my perspective on life, death, and being...

the energy of love continues through all things and our defined perception differentiating living beings and what we view as non-living beings does not stop the flow of love... I hope that you open yourself to the energy and let it help your through the loss of the physical contact with your physical birth vessel, your mother, by feeling the love she continues to send you and believe she is feeling the love you continue to send her... we can define it as memory, as spirit, as ethereal energy, as whatever we wish, but semantics only help us share belief and knowledge with those physical beings we call alive... speak with your mind, your internal energy, and she hears... listen with your mind/heart sense, and you shall too...

may this perspective be of some comfort to you at this most challenging time and throughout your life...

honest love, ric
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some of you might know of my final rhyme that I wrote when I was still going through puberty (or perhaps before, actually, as it's always been around in my scraps of papers) so my perspective on death may come as little surprise to you... and as a happy agnostic more than anything else, my bottom line is that I do not know what is beyond this life or beyond the current perception of the senses I access in this body... but the perspective I attempted to place into words in the email above is perhaps my favorite when I construct the possibilities of what is beyond as I would like it to be...

ultimately, I wish life to be a celebration and I wish leaving this life to be a time to celebrate having been and rejoicing in the memories that remain... of course everyone will make of it what they want to and most will probably disregard my wishes because the indoctrination into depressive dogma is so strong it defeats even the supposed respect anyone might have for a loved one (or anyone), but I can hope there are some who will rise above their fears and personal baggage and desire to be sad in order to give me one last gift...

shhhh, reverse guilt-tripping is reverse-psychology riding side-saddle and it might work if we just leave it at that, so nevermind this paragraph and whatever else might come on this subject and let the above be my final words on the subject when I am quoted...

I mean, if anything more than the rhyme itself is needed to get the celebration started...

so somewhere in your mourning, I hope you dance...

dance for the life that was real that you feel
dance for the time you remember with me
dance for the inspirations still moving you
dance me back into your reality

for I want to be a reason for your smile
so I did not waste loving you all these years
sadness only lasts for a little while
when you learn to see rainbows through your tears

I am riding the rainbows
floating on clouds
beaming with sunshine
shouting me out loud

I am singing in children
laughing in love
dancing in your mind
living above

this world was a grand time
not eternity
is waiting for your mind
to open and see

that's where I am now
that's where to find me
when you want me you'll find me riding on rainbows
riding on rainbows...
that's where I shall be
dancing for you
and always hoping
you will dance for me
dance with me

dance for the life that was real that you feel
dance for the time you remember with me
dance for the inspirations still moving you
dance me back into your reality