bobble-head me

sleep is needed… yes, ok, so i am a bobble-head… kind of like when you play checkers and get kingged, as in king me, except this comes from playing at life and skipping sleep… i would have written that i will probably be asleep before this entry is written, but i fell asleep before i wrote that… and again after i wrote that… and just before i wrote this too… yes, i am nodding off, just like a good babble head oughta…

i wonder if i already shared this:

the irony was amazing, maybe it is, still is, that is
but the calendar left me hazy in the night
as sleep requested more time every time
i want to still believe in love
and everything will be alright

but you abandoned me so long ago
after promising forever for eternity
so what do words or people matter
i ask myself again
it all seems just part of a fake show
i welcome proof to the contrary

so i wonder if the sleep number bed is the biggest scam since sliced bread… I mean, you can buy an air mattress for less than $50 or a really good one for $100 or so and fill it with just the pressure you feel most comfortable laying on… and if you want, you can buy a foam mattress top and how different is that than the $1500 or much higher price on the sleep number bed, after all?... and what's the deal on the NASA memory foam, anyway?... is that worth the price or just another milking of the holy dollar?... in any case, i really ought to make a decision about a new bed soon… i haven't slept in a bed since the Oklahoma trip, after all… but i am waiting to see if we move as we've not renewed the lease here yet and i'd rather not have to move a bed if it simply means waiting another month or so…

yeah, the rhyme could be depressing, but it really all depends, or at least mostly, on perspective… for me, being open to proof to the contrary is an amazing level of hope amidst the selfish self-destructive collective human condition we nod off into regularly, especially when we think we are wide awake, like at work or watching television, for instance… so it truly is a choice, you see (well, maybe you don't see, but it's a good philosophy you can explore at your leisure, or not at all, for that matter… not everybody can be brilliant, after all…

or awake, even…