merry happy

The world is much too full of religion,
leaving so little room for god.
for those who feel a need for some all-powerful being, then let there be room for such a being within those and do not pretend the social rituals and hypocrisy of rules can create such a being where actions do not… and whatever god may be if god exists, be there one or many or none, if such a being seeks other beings to devote time and energy to sacrifice life and limb in some form of worship or ritual then i believe that being is weak and insecure, seeking reassurance and validation from outside itself for it is lacking a sense of completeness or esteem within itself…

give your god the respect of living your life well...

i feel sad to see so many spending so much time and energy trying to be something they are not, pretending they believe one thing when most of their actions do not support their belief, ignoring the ignorance and hypocrisy they actualize and therein, become in their daily lives and collection actions…

give your god the honor of living your life true...

i see so much energy spent on fitting in, on belonging, on explaining, on justifying, on validating, on seeking confirmation, on thinking and over-thinking and demanding understanding and pleading for certainty and begging for security and hoping for unity and praying for sanctity and wishing for peace and dreaming of love and dividing everything into words... so little energy spent on just being...

give your god reverence by being all you can be, right now...

for me, peace is no longer feeling the need for validation... security is no longer feeling the need for answers... love is no longer feeling the need for confirmation... truth is no longer feeling the need to explain... not necessarily in that order...

i suggest you untie the knots… you will not fall apart, even if you think you are...

"Sometimes you have to take a step or two back, re-treat take a month off don't do anything don't want to do anything peace is paramount pace is paramount whatever you want you aren't going to get it by trying too hard.

Take ten years off you'll be stronger take twenty years off you'll be much stronger. there's nothing to win anyhow and remember the second best thing in the world is a good nights sleep and the best: a gentle death. ~ Bukowski

while i do not agree with all the quotes i read or choose to repeat here (or even with all the words i write), i am thankful for the inspirations and thoughts you and writing provides… writing allows me to explore possibilities of thought and perspectives and beliefs… rarely do i take the writing seriously enough to actually find the words to express myself as i am… most often i am playing with the possibilities, especially when i am alone, as i am today…

i have known the pleasure and time for actualization that comes from taking years off from the daily grind of work and modern life... letting go of the trappings, the possessions, the connections to the bills and responsibilities and obligations of maintaining what is called respectability and success is a freedom few experience, which is sad...

i may believe that religion and belief in god is a cop-out on the responsibility of growing out of dependent childhood and into independent being responsible for his or her own actions, but that may mean nothing to you... what matters is do we live our beliefs in our daily lives...

give your god life by lighting your light and following your dream...

it matters little whether there is a consciously planned and recorded continuum that remains visible in the physical world or whether each moment dissolves in a poof of synaptic ambivalence (or a delete button), what is is, what was was, what will be will be, and remembering or forgetting, deliberately or not, does not change this… whether tomorrow is dominoes falling at random or carefully set by some guiding hand, what matters is being open to the experience here and now… miss this, and you miss the point…

but it is an individual decision as we each create our own reality or illusion, depending on the word and perspective we choose… and whether one chooses to follow others or to explore a less travelled path toward reason or insanity, whether one records to remember or for ego's sack, or simply lives the moments, whether one chooses to believe in things beyond the sensory experience or one accepts not knowing what may be beyond the sensory experience, what matters is the actions one chooses to take in this life and the time and energy one spends in living…

many choose to wait, to hide, to deny, to close their minds (and hearts and senses) to much of the life experience for some reason… many choose to believe in rules that restrict the life experience well beyond the what others would choose… that is their choice and their right, though some believe they have the right to force their choices on others and that is where i disagree, for just as they would not want someone violating them and their choices, others would most likely like to be treated the same… do unto others, after all…

I respect those who choose to live up to their own professed beliefs, and words… i've met few who choose to… that is sad… my personal views provide a peace that requires nothing beyond the sensory experience and the moment… what is beyond the known sensory experience is fun for my imagination and inspires dreams and stories (which is one reason science fiction is a playground for my mind)… what is beyond the moment adds to the experience within my mind through memories and fantasies, but again, for me, none of that is required for peace and the pleasure of being in the moment…

that last paragraph comes as close to the perspective i call me as i've put into words in some time… whether it is irony, coincidence, subconscious, or conscious intention to choose this day of the year to ponder along these paths or not, the possibilities amuse me and that is why i write, to amuse myself… i put the words out here to introduce myself, to touch you, and to amuse you… if i succeed in this now and then, yay…

recently i was given cause to ponder the trail of blog entries and blogs i leave out here on the web... many thousands of pages of words, pieces of me, moments in time, bits of imagination, and much nonsense for the moment because irreverence amuses me... and the question of importance arises, the question of why i leave the words out here...

i leave the words out here as a trail, like bread crumbs, to me... because i am alone and hope to find a compatible intimate partner to share the moments of life... the blogs, the entries, the pages of words all lead to me in some way just as each book on my shelves and each song or video in my library points in some way to the experience that has formed me in this life... while sharing is not required for my peace and enjoyment of the moment, sharing often increases the pleasure and and enhances the moment... so these bits of me and my imagination remain as messages in bottles, as long and short winding roads leading to my door...

and that's why there is an entry almost every day, for today is the moment i live, yesterday matters to know me better, so the past entries and blogs remains, but today is the moment i am...

i hope you find what you require for peace within yourself in this world and spend most, if not all of your time enjoying the life… if you are still searching, may you enjoy the search and not stress the small stuff, or even the big stuff... let death and whatever might come next be a surprise party, it's much more exciting that way... don't forget now, enjoy the life along the way… it is your choice, even if you believe it is not, for that too is a choice… and in the end, may you enjoy taking responsibility for your choices and either love them or change them… i believe you can… and hope you do…

every day, in every way, enjoy your peace :)