energy rising

and that's the good news... the flip side is that as energy rises, loneliness (or awareness of aloneness and the desire to share, which reflects the positivity of loneliness better than the typically depressed most accepted connotation or inference might be viewed) rises...

Precious called me at work today because apparently the appointment for hair for her and Dreamer were not made... miraculously, I was able to get two appointments for tomorrow afternoon which should give them time to get to dinner on time and then to the prom... Raspy made dinner reservations for them at a restaurant near the prom sight, which is the Hard Rock Cafe at Universal Studios...

I spent most of the day at work helping someone with a new quarterly report she had to do... it required modifying a spreadsheet and database to produce the information she needed in a report format...

and home was the usual for these days, I sit in the big green chair, nap for a few hours, wake to go to the gym for at least an hour, then come here to the computer for an hour or so to log in the food and activites for the day and record the thoughts of the day here...

I did get to the lab to give some more blood... we shall see how the last 47 days of change have effected the results... I suspect cholesterol to remain about the same, which was 180, though I hope the HDL number goes up cuz it was low at 26... triglicerides hopefully went down, but I am not expecting much as my exztreme reduction in carbs (cuz the glucose was 157) and increased meat intake cuz of exercise meant consuming more fat than I had been eating previously... if the AST and ALT (60 and 140, respectively) didn't go down, I'll have to figure out how to get a balanced diet with less cheese and nuts and other higher fat proteins... ironic, since the weight loss continues in spite of increased fat intake... that's cuz overall calories have been cut in half, at least... anyway, those results were from 2/26 and hopefully I'll get to see the results from 4/5 and today soon...

I'd like to find more time for writing and uploading, especially the babbling that clears my brain of excess and the rhyming that keeps my heart beating... and music, how I long to experience and share more music... sometimes even more than how much I long to share love and romance... there's just so little inspiration and interest in creativity around me these days... that's the deepest loneliness of all for me...

waking up to myself is always an interesting experience... amusing that I'd let so much time go by asleep and alone when I love life and sharing so much... but it takes two to share and I am one... hopefully the more I wake, the more I shall attract others with higher energy levels who share as I do... I expect this rebuilding to continue at least through June before I am ready for the next step, which is figure out how to fit more social life into the way too short 24 hour day and 168 hour week...

and that's the news and thoughts of the day for today... I hope you are experiencing life and yourself to your satisfaction and enjoying whatever you do... cz that is what it's all about :)