musical effects

look up! look up! I mean look up above this line and date… see the new thingy?... it's a media player… did you press the little arrow on the left?... is it playing?... isn't it sweet?... now you can spend hours here reading while you listen to the music… yes, there is that much music… almost seventy songs (gonna be seventy-five when the mix or set or playlist is done)… it's a soft sounding theme, Songs for Quiet Dreams… so it might put you to sleep… it is wonderful sleep music, for me, at least… so you can come visit me here and sleep with me… or with my blog, at least… you've been introduced, it's ok…

so can you imagine my excitement when i figured out how to make one of those (we're still talking about the Project Playlist music player up above there just below the subtitle… in case you weren't sure)?... and not only here, but on my myspace blog too… and i changed it's shape and formatting on my first try… most of the songs are core parts of my history and psyche, but a handful of new ones fitting in well make the whole project and listening experience all the more exciting for me…

i could probably drone on and on and on for hours about it…

and then, one of these days, maybe i'll make references to different songs as they play and maybe that'll give you more insight into the RealMe™ in the RealLife™ i live in RealTime™ and won't that be just what the blog doctor ordered up for this blog cuz the humanness of being real is the goal, isn't it?... I mean, humans are real, aren't they?... so music plays at two of my blogs now… well, it plays if you want it to… i made the player default to silence, or not autostart, cuz maybe you're at work or already listening to music or simply do not want to hear the music… autostart music when music isn't wanted can be a big turn off, right?... so no turn off here, you choose, you are in charge, the major honcho, the head cheese… if you want to hear music, you push the little arrow button on the left under the album cover picture… check that out, album cover pictures…

and you can skip the first few songs (or any song) if you've hear them already… it would be really cool if the player thing came with a code to remember you and start the player wherever you left off listening… a good geek could probably write a code for a cookie just like that… i'll throw the suggestion out into the cyber ether and maybe at the player site and maybe somebody will work on the feature… but anyway, you can just push on those little double arrow buttons (like fast forward to the next song or go back to the previous song… you've worked a tape player before, or a CD player, for that matter, haven't you?) and skip the songs you hear last time you were here until you get to the end of the playlist… when you've reached the end, probably sometime next year (unless you truly love music, or me, and just park your browser here at my blog and listen… i suppose if you're gonna sleep with me, you might do that… don't hog the covers, ok?)… anyway, sometime down the road, if you grow tired of the sleepy songs for quiet dreams playlist, i'll switch out for another playlist… i'm already working on a half dozen more…

i couldn't find all of the songs i'd have put on this playlist if i was making it from the perfect songs for this playlist in my head… you have to find the songs on the internet or upload them to a site that the playlist gadget can find and access… two of the songs come from my very own site, maybe you noticed them in a recent blog entry… can it get any more uber techno geekishly exciting?... well, i suppose it can, but around here, this is like the height of new knowledge for today…

yeah, i probably could drone on for hours about it…

meanwhile, just in case you got a rash, i mean, before you get any rash ideas or worries about life here at what used to be euphemistically (and ironically) called casa de candoor (remember those days?... i am determined to do something over there, there being btc, or behind the candoor at diaryland, before a full year of silence befalls the poor babblers haven… there, you see, i laid down the challenge, the gauntlet, the goal… do something over there to either wake it up or close it down before (i think it's February)… hopefully you'll all be please, or teary-eyed, even… i am…

yeah, so anyway, there was a blog in progress when that music player thingy entered my consciousness and blogs and rather than drone on and on and on and on and on for hours and hour and hours about the music player and playlist and individual songs and the merits of the choices and the effectiveness of the arrangement to provide the perfect or at least very effective representation of the title songs for quiet dreams and whatever else the player, playlist process, music, words, memories, and whatever else the player, playlist process, music, words, memories, and whatever else whatever else might inspire, i'll just mosey on along to the blog entry already in progress… ready, set, go…

well, the headphones i bought so i could listen to this laptop while sitting in the big green chair when the TV is on in the living room (which is most of the time Raspy and Precious are awake) work if i juggle the headphone jack on the laptop, but the laptop speakers do not turn off and i've found no way to turn them off so it defeats the purpose of listening silently to music… dumb set up for a multimedia laptop if you ask me… alas, it's still letting me relax in the big green chair and serves most purposes (even if some things don't seem to work, like the CD/DVD burner)… for now, it's good for my purposes…

meanwhile, remember my letter to the people who put on the concert that changed venues and cut the lead bands time?... well, i got a nice apology letter back and an offer for two free tickets to the concert of my choice at the location… cool, no?... so another concert for December is added to my getting-busier-by-the-minute night life… here's the next couple of weeks (though I think i'm skipping tomorrow):

Nov 23rd (Hard Rock) ALBUM: Abbey Road
Nov 24th (House of Blues) . . . Brand New, Thrice, mewithoutyou
Nov 25th (Cass. Library) . . . LOA Meetup
Nov 27th (Enzian) . . . Film Shorts Meetup
Nov 29th (Enzian) . . . I'm Not There
Nov 30th (HOB) . . . Collective Soul
Nov 30th (Central Park) . . . Miracle on 34th St
Dec 1st (Sanford) . . . House Party Meetup
Dec 1st (HOB) . . . Jimmy Eat World
Dec 4th (O'Boys) . . . Earth Trivia
Dec 22nd (Social) . . . Less Than Jake
Dec 29th (Downtown) . . . Joan Jett & the Blackhearts

most likely a bunch of meetups will be added in December, maybe another concert or show as well, though i don't think i'll be keeping up weeks like this one every week cuz i've gotta try to fit in exercise and sleep… and i do still work full time and may have to put in extra hours at any time in the next few months… but in spite of my lack of daily exercise lately and piling on some pounds again, i am more motivated to get out and find social life and people into my interests and philosophies and lifestyle than i have been in a long time, maybe since i first returned to florida in 2000… so yay for that attitude and so far, yay for the follow through and hopefully, yay for soon-to-come success…

someone (who shall remain nameless cuz i do know how to respect privacy even if i don't hide much, if anything myself) ask me if Precious and Rasputin read this blog… i dunno, they never mention the blog or the contents, but they definitely know about it cuz i sit here writing it in front of them and i talk about it now and then and it's linked prominently at my myspace and Precious has been there over the years… maybe it's lack of interest or respect for privacy or avoiding the issues or some other reason, but it seems to have little or no effect… i don't write anything here they don’t hear from me in verbal language from time to time and if it would help get this living space more welcoming for guests i'd wish they would read it more…

so that's the answer, as best as i can ponder it… people i work with know where to find me online as well and some of them are connected through myspace, but as i said i do respect privacy when people want it and most people want a lot of it, so i understand people known in the offline world not wanting to be too connected to my wide-open practically naked babbling reflections of every and anything that passes through this life i loosely call mine… i'm not gonna shove my blogs, my love of literary sharing, or my online worlds into anyone's faces, except z0tl and a couple of other folk who would think something was wrong in my head if i didn't beg and plead for attention and response on a regular basis… i wish people i knew in real life were into words more (and of course, ego would love it if i knew lots of people on and offline who loved my peculiar brand of babbling madness)… an interactive blog might be much fun with the right crazy people…

meanwhile… i'm just digging on the new sounds here at the blog… if you did (or do) have hours to spend here, did you notice the mini-roller coaster of emotional influence that the music (and words) rode (rides?)… there is a theme, you know… love love love, naturally, but the bubble of angst and frustration and touch of self-doubt and social conscience does add flavor to the otherwise sublime softness and optimism of the overall song choices and placements…

i'm doing it again, aren’t i?...

ok, it's time to let you just listen as you browse elsewhere or do whatever it is you wish to do on or offline… i hope the music inspires you to do something wonderful today… even if that is what i did the first time i listened, which was take a wonderfully peaceful nap… cuz love is real, ya know?... well, hopefully you know, even if you deny it (denial is human and did you notice me doing it recently?... i know, you were all sorts of polite and ignored the little tirade even though part of me feels i've wasted my time and energy if nobody comments on the words i painstakingly put together and upload, but am i getting the hang of this human trip or what?... ok, i'll stop, but i won't stop giggling)… and you do know (i hope) that i truly and deeply (and madly too) adore you for leaving a few words or smile or wave or long lingering in-depth commentary or random words, even… so i hope you enjoy listening and let me know what you think of the whole thing and individual songs too, if they move you to a word or few or even if you just like one or some…

see what happens when i take a few days off?... in between my long naps, i am finally finding a way to put music on my blogs the way i want it… not intrusive, your choice to turn it on or off, and lots to choose from… i might wind up with a few playlists and hundreds of songs to choose from if i can make that work… maybe even a music blog (another blog?) that actually lets you see and scroll through the playlist (i wanted it small and out of the way for starters here, so i changed the code to remove the scrolling playlist part… you still have the buttons to skip forward and back to see the other songs though)… i'm gonna listen through the whole playlist one of these days (when i'm done with the naps) and probably tweak the order and add the last few songs to make it seventy five songs… i know, too much excitement, i'll let it all sink in…

so whatever you did yesterday and whatever you are doing today, i hope it was much fun, healthy, and amazing for you… it sure was all that and more for me (though, ok, if could have definitely been more healthy, but hey, two out of three ain't bad, cha cha cha)… i hope someday you join me in the bliss of being human, or whatever i am… cuz it really is a wonderful life…